My 123rd Post: Stranger On Chat

I am just blank...I don't know how to start this....really there is nothing in my mind....no words no nothing....it should be something nice, something interesting, something out of this world...it should be something which would grab the reader off her feet and into the air floating over my words....it should be something perfect, something which no one might have ever used....it should be something from my heart but still should be classy enough to show my coolness.....I know what to say and I just know the right words to type....they would be "hi there"....
On a chat, with a total stranger....it is like going in a war with Japanese weaponry but having no clue of the instructed language.....no idea what to say and how to grab the attention....the mind goes totally blank because each smooth line might trigger the bomb that is might force the person to leave....the mind keeps wondering what to say because that start is the only thing that would impress the other person to stay and talk....it shouldn't be too cheesy because that is totally fattening for a start....it shouldn't be out of line because that would break the glass of respect....it shouldn't be something over thought because something which reveals how much you thought before starting a simple chat would indicate the fact that you are a pretender....it should be something simple and appealing at the same time....a simple compliment or greeting work at times.....

Got a reply, now what....everything goes blank....adrenaline rushes through the system and the eyes keep staring at the screen...the heart pumps faster and faster as if it were to beat the time track of Indianapolis 500....for a moment, the hands freeze upon the keyboard and the mind tries to settle back in....suddenly, you gain enough strength to strike some keys and there you have it, a reply upon your screen ready to be sent....the conversation starts and the stranger settles in....victory...
Talking to this stranger seems wonderful because there is a feeling that even though that someone doesn't knows you, he/she is still willing to be there for you....it feels that there is hope in you and you are good enough to get an attention from a total stranger, that you deserve things in life....it gives a rise to dead motivation in life and brings a new dawn....
Talking to strangers isn't safe, that is what we were taught but what is safe? The person you knew since your childhood turned out to be a crook so that leaves a chance that this someone might be an angel or someone whom you might really count on in the upcoming future....stranger today might be someone important tomorrow....trusting someone is something else but before deciding that you can't trust someone, you need to give a chance at least....if there isn't any trust then there is nothing to break and if nothing to break then there is no spice and if no spice then no life....talk to a stranger today...try to know that someone....there are good people even outside the circle you live in.....

My 117th Post: Random Words

It has been around two months since I came out with my last post....somehow I am unable to write....when I write, I just lose the sight of my path and then there I am, with my words hanging without an edge and I keep on removing that post from my published list....I really don't know why but somehow I believe that I can't write any more....it is like I have a major block in my head which is making me post nothing though there are so many things to write upon here....I have many topics waiting for my mind to put out in words but when I start writing, I end up watching some video or playing those stupid facebook games....it is just like I have a torch while walking down the path in a darkness filled valley but what I miss are the batteries for my torch...somehow the writing spree is hung up as that light from that valley....
I really do want to write but I don't know why I keep resisting....I do believe that I am not a bad writer but well I guess there is this voice in my back head which keeps telling me that you really don't have much readers and it simply means that my writing is way worse than many....that voice has conquered my will I suppose....somehow I have lost the battle with that voice but I want to prove it wrong and want to win this war...so what if it won the battle, the war is still for me to win...

Writing all this has really brought me up....well literally speaking then I did change my posture from lying down to sitting up but well I think this is working....there is this light I can see at the moment which is trying to tell me to find the path....it is telling me that I haven't diverted much...the path is still there and the light is vibrating...o sorry, that was my cell phone so I guess no light at all....
I really think I should write again....I really do love writing and I was an idiot for ignoring this beauty...now writing all this I really think I have missed my hands upon this keyboard and making sounds like tic tic tic....and the pain from typing is really amazing....I don't know if you guys are really reading this still and if reading, you guys are not having an image of a lunatic blogger but I will write....I guess my block ends with this post and from tomorrow onwards insha-Allah, I will blog properly once more....
Best of luck to me guys and please keep on motivating me with your comments and your views...thank you...

My 94th Post: What If

In life, we make decisions at each and every step....at times, we rarely have enough time to look upon the matter and decide properly....we just go with what our mind says or our heart believes in....at the end of each and every quest, we always have a question in our minds....no matter what the result is, whether good or bad, we always think 'What If' at the end....then there are various other options in front of us after receiving the results and we keep visualising the situation with the alternative....
This two worded question never dies from our minds....it is always there...like what if I had woke up early instead of getting up late...though I can't change anything now but still am a human and to be honest, we are weak....we like to fool our brain at each and every possible moment because we know that reality is harsh and if we had just a chance, we might change...though we mostly repeat what we did before but still we like to hope for a chance to change....maybe the results might be better and we might have a better time....
What if...this brings up a lot of thoughts in my brain because there are many moments in my life which I would like to change....there are many decisions which I guess I regret taking ever but now, I don't have the power to change them...though I can change the upcoming future by trying not to repeat anything like that or when a similar decision comes, try to choose the alternative but well that is next time, not the one I have already lived.....I guess all of you readers would also have this question hovering around you specially when you get a quite time, away from every other thought....
We aren't perfect and that is the beauty of life....if we knew the option with the best result, then there wouldn't be such a thing as hope because we would always know that whatever the result might be, it would be perfect.....asking the question 'What If' shows that one is living because he/she feels.....'What If' is a result of guilt, sorrow, hurt, or even jealousy but whatever the reason is for that to occur, it just shows we are still human beings and aren't just walking with a dead soul.....
Do keep asking this question when ever you feel the need of it but never drown in depression because of that....no one can change his/her fate....what we choose, is meant for us....instead of getting depressed, one should just stand up and try to take the upcoming decisions with the knowledge from the previous results....just try to live and what so ever happens, accept it and bring a smile upon your face...I know that is one tough thing, but that is the easiest as compared to being dead while living.....

My 73rd Post: The Forget All Pill

 Life has a lot of turns to offer and amongst those there are some which we don't like at all...there are times which we regret of being present in and times when we simply wish that nothing was there at all...but still, we don't have any option of moving past what we once have seen...it always remains in the back of our memory as the root of a withered tree....
Just giving things a random thought made me wonder what if there was some way which would help us forget a particular time period or an instant....what if the memory which we store winds up in the recycle bin...though the topic suggests a pill which would help us forget stuff and as much I recall, there are drugs which help in forgetting a desired time period...but what about a memory which was stored some years back...how to erase that? that is the main question rolling in my mind....

There are times and memories which haunt each and every day....people tend to forget things with time but there are things which hold on tight and never leave the sight...those memories are painful and the main source for someone's depression....it is always suggested to live in the present and forget about the past but no one really knows how to do that...people only suggest but they themselves know that moving on and erasing a thing from past is difficult and somehow impossible because at times in life, old memories line up in the shape of pictures, a house or someone who resembles the one you trying to forget...even I have troubles forgetting like my favorite collection of bookmarks which I lost some years back but each time I try to set a mark in some novel, the memory haunts me....well it doesn't haunt me but still imagine if those bookmarks were a person you loved and that someone left you and now when you watch t.v, there is someone who resembles that dear one way too much...it gets really irritating when that actors turns out to be famous and winds up on every single channel...
There is a disease I heard of in which you forget everything except your education, your daily routine and the people who are around you most of the times...except that, everything else becomes a mystery for you....now this ain't a depressed writer typing but imagine someone getting a chance to start off from basics with nothing of his/her life, just like getting to live twice in a single life span....in the circumstances of this era, for me it is kind of a blessing for that someone....having everything in a normal way just getting a new start is perfect...many would die for such a thing because the minds are polluted to such an extent that it feels as if it would burst one day due to the stress and pressure in it....
As an engineering student, I have a vision in my brain...a device which would help connect the human brain with the computer and just like a memory card, things would be stored and deleted from it easily....not going in the details of my logic but if any scientist is reading this post, do contact me and help design this...in my belief, this won't be playing God, it would be a form of recycling or the a green act...something like that....well hope something works out till I start off with my designs....
Tc, do comment and share and also share your views as well...

My 42nd Post: Right or Wrong

There are always two sides to a decision, right and wrong.....if its right, then everything is swell but if its wrong, things get unbalanced....but the confusing part is when we don't know what the outcome would be....but still that is easy to go through because we know that the decision might be correct just the outcome has a chance....at times, the decision itself is in the selection phase....the decision might be right or wrong....when that happens, it is really tough to select because its hard to overlook the decision....
Everybody hopes that the life would have been really easy....there would have been no requirement of thinking over a matter, just do what the heart says and the consequences wouldn't matter at all....but that isn't how life is....every single thing needs to be as perfect as possible..if not, then serious issues occur....
At times the heart will go with something which is truly wrong but still we want to do that because it seems as if everything revolves around that matter.....it keeps bugging until that is done and when finished, makes us all gloomy and off the shores of life....it is really complicated how things change and happen.....but well in the end, the fight between right and wrong continues....the decision is made but things map up in a way to take another step which then seems wrong or maybe right but the timing may be wrong.....

I am just thinking, everything is divided among these two categories.....a right thing for me may not be right for you and in the same way a wrong act may seem a right act to you.....simple example, selecting a medical university may be wrong for me but a right act for someone reading this post....but here I am mainly concerned with the logical point of view not the likes and dislikes or the capabilities......a thought should be right but how to distinguish it is the main deal.....how to know what is right and what is wrong....if I tell my methodology then I simply think that if what I am doing can be shared with my parents and can be openly talked about in the society, then there is nothing wrong with that.....but if doing something, I have to hide the tale and keep aloof from people, then I need to rethink over it.....it is easy to do wrong but when the time comes to convert that wrong into something right, then things mess up....
I wouldn't suggest to do what the heart says....heart speaks a lot and it really knows what we want and what we desire...it just wants us happy and wants us to keep smiling but doesn't thinks that maybe what it advises would be the source of pain in the mere future.....so listen to your heart, consider its thoughts but do keep your mind's point of view in your head and then make any decision....there are least chances to do wrong, mostly you would end up with a right decision but do keep in mind that maybe that right decision might hurt you for a while but that would save you from a bitter future.....
Keep smiling, stay safe, comment and share.......

My 38th Post: Those Goodbyes

First we meet someone and then we great them....then the time passes on in long long chats....some laughs are shared and some fights are dodged but everything seems lovely and enjoyable.....some secrets reveal and some mysteries unfold....the time flies of in the dripping of the words.....it feels so good and the heart wishes more but unfortunately, it has to end.....
At some point, you need to turn....maybe for a while or sometimes, forever....that is the toughest moment of meeting someone...the time when you have to say goodbye....it gets impossible to let go the one you want to be with...the one who was making you smile for the past few hours of your life.....the one who was there to set a memory in your mind.....but you have to go....life needs other requirements to be fulfilled.....staying there forever can not be done....when letting someone go, the heart gets heavy and things damp up....you had to leave because there were other things winding up but you really didn't want to leave because that was the one you felt really comfortable with...that was the one you want to be with....
There is a fear that developes in our minds at the time of a farewell that whether we would get to meet again or not, whether there would be an other series of the chat or not.....this 'whether' really messes up the mind specially when we don't want to lose that someone....we somehow try to budge things here and there in order to achieve a little window but at times that is not an available option even....
Leaving someone is really bad....the attachment of the heart really makes it tough...though the heart is only a pumping device, it sometimes tries to be what it shouldn't be....it gets us tangled up with people so badly that at times even after a long time after departure, we still miss them badly....at that moment, the heart tells us that it is possible to get to them even if the clock was ticking 4 of the morning.....its a relief that the brain stands for us and reminds us of the insanity the heart advises and we sit back in the memories missing their presence...
Goodbyes do hurt but sometimes, they just leave a mark behind...there are times when we know that the person who is about to leave, would never return.....that is the time when the heart bleeds from inside....at times the person leaves us and at others, we have to leave them....it maybe because someone dies, which surely makes it complicated but still it was a known farewell...but when the person is still alive and leaves because of some reason, that hurts.....
Well, no one can avoid it...what only matters is that we meet again...that is the only thing the heart desires...and that is the only request a person has for someone he leaves behind....
Upon this topic there is a famous Hindi song which I have in mind from days and would like to share it here, so enjoy, comment and do share...

My 35th Post: Insanity

A time comes when our conscious mind just losses it....it goes dumb and everything in front of us just goes from left to right...no matter how hard we try, we can't get things go straight....that is the time when our perfectly sane mind goes off track to a joint known as insanity.....
Even the simplest questions at times seem so tough that we stay confused of what to answer....nothing comes in our mind and instead of giving a logical answer, we hit a jackpot of the world's dumbest reply....still in the end our mind manages to make us laugh as if it were a clever thing to do....where is the justification in that? it ruined our chance and then instead of accepting its guilt, it goes on making fun of us....not fair...
The results are coming in tomorrow seems a normal situation for us but our brain views it as a chance to pull a gag on us.....instead of telling us to relax and sleep perfectly like a child, it keeps us reminding of the day and then shows us different images of the result....keeps us beeping all the time and the best part is when we lay down to sleep....o the brain goes wild.....there are dreams which we can't even imagine....things go wild and world seems upside down.....it keeps waking us with shocks at different times at night.....and as we wake up it remains ready to get us back to bed after increasing the rate of the heart.....the brain is a naughty fellow, keeps ruining things a lot....
Well that was just a part of it....insanity is caused by mostly having a tensed mind, like the time we await for our results....when we get highly tensed, things become impossible to concentrate on and everything becomes intolerable....even the slightest may seem irritating and the best person available may be the worst option ever.....insane brain is not a good feature....so for that a person should remain calm and try not to get tensed and think a lot about something...what ever would happen would be the best for us and we can't do anything in order to change it cause that was supposed to happen and would happen no matter how hard we try....
Still there are people who love to be insane....not exactly insane as the ones who can't think properly but they know the outcomes and still go on with the things they want.....they don't give up and don't even care about the outcome, just want to enjoy and live life to the fullest....example would be a bike rider who does a wheelie on a motorway or a car driver who goes on breaking the records of the highest speed.....that is insanity but with a little sane mind....driving a car while singing and dancing over a track seems insane to some but a sane decision to others....
Every mind has a different boot in system and each one views things differently.....one thing sane and perfect for me, may not be the same for you.....but still some things are insane and that is known by all like jumping off a 500ft cliff into the sea without any safety gear, that is insanity but well people are meant to get crazy and drift of the hook....you can't control that, it is the dare devil inside of you who speaks at that moment and no matter how hard one may try, it doesn't soothes down....
Keep on being insane but in limits....try not to get hurt or hurt others just cause you wanted to do that cause then it wouldn't do any good.....insanity leads to guilt at times, so we need to avoid that cause guilty by insanity is hard to swallow....
Tc, comment and share.....