My 120th Post: Smile :)

Mornings always bring out some changes in our moods....one day we wake up mad or the other just carry a feeling of loneliness....today I woke up, I didn't have either of those two....there was something hanging upon my face....I don't know where it came from or why is it really there but I have a smile on my face which is even smiling as I am writing this post.....regardless yesterday's ups and downs, am smiling today and I think it is really a blessing to smile like this....
At times there are some people in your contact list who just bring out a smile upon your face....their presence just makes it everything for you to achieve at that moment and you start smiling....words fade away and there is nothing to say at all except for passing a smile....every negative vibe dies off and a pleasant air fills the space....who knew that flexing few muscles could result in such a beautiful thing....
A smile is a solution to many problems...it can fix relations, it can cheer up people, it can give a feeling of warmth, it is just magical.....smile really isn't an answer of everything but the least it can do is to give someone a hope....a simple smile can cover up a large statement, 'don't worry, it will be alright..'...
I really don't have much to talk upon this topic because all I can think about is smiling at the screen....it is like I want to smile to all my readers and make them understand what I really want to say....this smile is a feeling of heaven....I really feel my heart flying towards the sky and there is no pain in it....it feels as if everything is cured by this smile I have right now.....it is like fight with me right now and all you would see is me smiling...okay yeah I would beat you back but with a smile and I guess that is what matters....
It might seem as if am a lunatic or something like that who is smiling all the time for nothing at all....yeah sure, maybe am gone goo goo but does it really matters? I mean at least I am happy from inside and my smile really boosts my soul....smiling a lot isn't bad if you ask me...sure it ain't healthy but still, it is the best feeling one can have and I am proud to have this as a part of my life...
People do various drugs just to achieve a state from where they can forget the life they are living...they go after meths or heroine and consume bags of money and destroy their health as well....for me, smiling is the best drug of them all....its cost are nominal and it is available all the time and it is good for health....so yeah, I am high but high upon my smile :)

My 75th Post: Birthday Boy!!

Each passing year, there is a day in my life when my phone rings unexpectedly and my Facebook wall keeps piling up with posts from my friends and family...each one taking out their precious time just to wish me in their own style and keep the excitement alive till the day doesn't ends...so it is my birthday again...though am not really a birthday celebrating type of a person, yes there are odd human beings like me, but still it feels nice somewhere in my heart that people do remember me and they have given me a special place in their life...
To be honest, I was just wondering how to say thank you and show my appreciation to all those who have wished me till yet and are going to in the upcoming hours or days, so I thought why not to dedicate a post to all as a BIG thank you note from me :)
It is wonderful to receive all the warm wishes and prayers you all give me...thank you all for making me feel that no matter how much I do wrong and hurt you guys, you always come around on this day just to be a part of my life and lend me a hand to start a new year....
Well, to all who might be wondering, I turned 21 today and about the party scene, well not really aware of anything at the hour...well I don't think something would be lining up so I guess I would be at my place just relaxing and watching t.v all day long....well that is the party I love :P O I just forgot the best part of this year's birthday...the best part is that there won't be any other day on this planet when someone might be able to write the time 12:12:12 and the date 12/12/12, so a special birthday after all =D

Grab a Slice People.....

My 64th Post: A Drift Towards An Old Memory

As I recall, it was Saturday, 26th of April of the year 2008....it wasn't officially a school day because we had our exams coming in and before that, it is a period of preparation so being absent doesn't really counts but still we were called in to watch a movie titled 'Stranger than Fiction'...this whole setup was covered by our English teacher who really wanted us to learn something and grab ideas for the essays in the paper but I had no intention of watching that film for that I would like to apologize to her....anyhow, the graduating batch was busy the whole day in group photos and enjoying their last moments as a batch because they already had gone through their farewell party and the next time they would reunite was going to be during the exams....so clearly, senior section had no motives of studying....
Well just after four and a half years, I saw that movie right now...still, the movie couldn't appeal me much but brought me back to that day....I had some work upon my mind and was plotting ways to successfully do it...so with that fuss in my head, I wasn't able to concentrate upon the movie or anything else....I really wanted that stuff to be perfect but as people say, when you over think something, disasters happen...well not exactly a disaster but things didn't quite go as I planned...or in other words, there was no plan at all because I had thought of doing it but forgot to think how I was going to do it....I tried but when it failed, I had nothing else to do except backing down at least for a while...I troubled few people that day but still it means a lot to me because that day I realized the fact that the friends I was with, are really my true friends because they supported me in my bad time....
Rest of the day wasn't really that happy but still those memories would definitely last forever....I know, I was a kid back then and even the little things matter a lot but I didn't know that my mind would treasure them like this....today, this film is the reason I am blogging right now because it gave me something to write upon....though I still don't know the ending of that movie, all I know is that it holds a key to a part of my memory....
Things bad or good, sometimes cling to the memory lane....whenever they come in front of us or appear somewhere, we jump in the past and play those flash backs....at times, it is a pleasant feeling but sometimes it gets irritating or depressing....my memory is somehow a pleasant thought for me so instead of falling back, I am here writing about it but for some, it may not be that good....there are few options available at those moments...either to avoid them or try not to encounter them....I came across because I was surfing channels so honestly, I wasn't able to avoid it and may happen with anybody else...so just try to be strong and get past it....it's just a memory and bad memories can be ignored with a thought that you are living in present and heading towards your future where one day that memory would flush down because you earned something better to bypass that....
So take care, keep smiling and keep cherishing those memories and yeah, do share my blog as well.....

My 35th Post: Insanity

A time comes when our conscious mind just losses it....it goes dumb and everything in front of us just goes from left to right...no matter how hard we try, we can't get things go straight....that is the time when our perfectly sane mind goes off track to a joint known as insanity.....
Even the simplest questions at times seem so tough that we stay confused of what to answer....nothing comes in our mind and instead of giving a logical answer, we hit a jackpot of the world's dumbest reply....still in the end our mind manages to make us laugh as if it were a clever thing to do....where is the justification in that? it ruined our chance and then instead of accepting its guilt, it goes on making fun of us....not fair...
The results are coming in tomorrow seems a normal situation for us but our brain views it as a chance to pull a gag on us.....instead of telling us to relax and sleep perfectly like a child, it keeps us reminding of the day and then shows us different images of the result....keeps us beeping all the time and the best part is when we lay down to sleep....o the brain goes wild.....there are dreams which we can't even imagine....things go wild and world seems upside down.....it keeps waking us with shocks at different times at night.....and as we wake up it remains ready to get us back to bed after increasing the rate of the heart.....the brain is a naughty fellow, keeps ruining things a lot....
Well that was just a part of it....insanity is caused by mostly having a tensed mind, like the time we await for our results....when we get highly tensed, things become impossible to concentrate on and everything becomes intolerable....even the slightest may seem irritating and the best person available may be the worst option ever.....insane brain is not a good feature....so for that a person should remain calm and try not to get tensed and think a lot about something...what ever would happen would be the best for us and we can't do anything in order to change it cause that was supposed to happen and would happen no matter how hard we try....
Still there are people who love to be insane....not exactly insane as the ones who can't think properly but they know the outcomes and still go on with the things they want.....they don't give up and don't even care about the outcome, just want to enjoy and live life to the fullest....example would be a bike rider who does a wheelie on a motorway or a car driver who goes on breaking the records of the highest speed.....that is insanity but with a little sane mind....driving a car while singing and dancing over a track seems insane to some but a sane decision to others....
Every mind has a different boot in system and each one views things differently.....one thing sane and perfect for me, may not be the same for you.....but still some things are insane and that is known by all like jumping off a 500ft cliff into the sea without any safety gear, that is insanity but well people are meant to get crazy and drift of the hook....you can't control that, it is the dare devil inside of you who speaks at that moment and no matter how hard one may try, it doesn't soothes down....
Keep on being insane but in limits....try not to get hurt or hurt others just cause you wanted to do that cause then it wouldn't do any good.....insanity leads to guilt at times, so we need to avoid that cause guilty by insanity is hard to swallow....
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My 9th Post: Mood swings

hey ya all....it has really been an odd day....my mood seems to change every hour or so....I am in a mood to listen to classic at a moment but just 5 mins later am singing rock or maybe just maybe just fed up of songs....that feeling is really tough to control and tolerate, I mean come on, there should be a flow for each and everything....it shouldn't be a buffet of moods or feelings to search the way through...I mean it is understandable that one is eating a pizza and then changes the taste to spaghetti...that is acceptable but just imagine someone happy and then sad and then happy and then gloomy, simply that person would have lost it....well today is that day for me and which is why my writing seems to hit of the edge and sink in the screen just like titanic did in Atlantic (I guess).....
people do get mood swings, some due to some medical conditions and others do to some trauma....but still there are special cases like me who get swings cause of no particular reason...seriously there should be something like heartbreak or anger upon something or stress but no...for me it is simply a special day cause my life needs me to be unique in every kind of way possible :p
right now I am just feeling kind of ignorant and want to stop writing and the time I started off this post, I felt lonely :/ but well now I am happy much :D and ya I should get my head on straight and leave for now :P
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