My 124th Post: Am Drowning

This is something, I just wanted to write down without any real motive or thought maybe....

Am drowning

Without water pulling me down

Without sand covering my frown

Yet, am drowning

With the sorrows of this world

With the mysteries so curled

No idea where to stand

No idea what to hold

My vision is growing dark

There is no light or a spark

Am drowning

And headed somewhere which is far

Somewhere which holds me like a tar

Somewhere where I can't see any return

Place where I feel my heart burn

There is no end to this all

It feels like a never ending fall

My mind is gone numb

It feels like a wasted crumb

No thoughts ahead

No happiness thread

It is gone dumb

But yet

It knows am drowning

It can see my inside frowning

With time yet to come

It would stand

And look at his chum

Won't do a thing about that

But, it surely would regret

It surely would regret...

My 43rd Post: What the Heart Says

There are bunch of complaints I keep receiving on daily basis.....all the time its the same accuser and the same victim....I don't know what to do in this matter...each day I wake up, my brain keeps nudging me to stop my heart from contributing in the decisions of my life.....it keeps telling me to warn it else I would face a serious series of thoughts....what can I do, my heart doesn't listens to me....it keeps telling me different things and whatever it says, seems legit to me.....it is really convincing.....my heart knows how to fool me and get things done in its ways....that is mostly what my brain hates and that is why it keeps telling me to snatch the power of decision making from my heart....

It is really a tough thing to do.....heart doesn't listens to anyone, it just does things which makes it rush more rapidly.....though it only wants good for us, it at times messes things up because somethings aren't supposed to be tempered with and that is what the brain knows well.....heart is just like some immature kid who wants to see the person smiling and to do that, it can cross any limit forgetting the pain it would cause.....
The heart keeps on talking a lot and tells many stories....it tries to provide guidance in stuff but that guidance is way costly...due to it, a whole day may ruin or become so odd that even with eyes wide open, things seem blurred up....I really don't know why the heart has to be like that....it could have been a sophisticated organ like the brain but no it had to be like a saint which only runs after the happiness even when it is for a little while.....
Right now my heart is saying something really stupid.....I know that would be real fun but still at this hour of the night, how can I howl like a wolf, or wait why would I even howl at anytime? see, its a foolish idea but still what can I do, my heart loves me a lot....
I do many things because my heart tells me to do so but after most, there is some regret in them...though they weren't wrong but still led to hurt....but why not to do what it tells us to do? I mean it understands us better and after doing what it says, there is always a smile on our face....if something doesn't hurts anyone and it is what makes you happy, you can do it....even if the happiness stays for few moments because in this hectic life, a smile on the face for only 3 seconds is a lot...on this thought, so what if something I did yesterday lowered my glucose level for the rest of my day...the smile it brought to my face and the relief it gave me was worth making that decision again and again for days....
I would just like to salute my heart...it surely have made things worst and increased the difficulty level of my life, but it did take care of me at the times I really needed it....taught me a lot and made me smile even when there was nothing to smile about....it just made me happy at times when there was no light in front of me....
Tc people, comment, share and do take care of your beloved heart.....

My 35th Post: Insanity

A time comes when our conscious mind just losses it....it goes dumb and everything in front of us just goes from left to right...no matter how hard we try, we can't get things go straight....that is the time when our perfectly sane mind goes off track to a joint known as insanity.....
Even the simplest questions at times seem so tough that we stay confused of what to answer....nothing comes in our mind and instead of giving a logical answer, we hit a jackpot of the world's dumbest reply....still in the end our mind manages to make us laugh as if it were a clever thing to do....where is the justification in that? it ruined our chance and then instead of accepting its guilt, it goes on making fun of us....not fair...
The results are coming in tomorrow seems a normal situation for us but our brain views it as a chance to pull a gag on us.....instead of telling us to relax and sleep perfectly like a child, it keeps us reminding of the day and then shows us different images of the result....keeps us beeping all the time and the best part is when we lay down to sleep....o the brain goes wild.....there are dreams which we can't even imagine....things go wild and world seems upside down.....it keeps waking us with shocks at different times at night.....and as we wake up it remains ready to get us back to bed after increasing the rate of the heart.....the brain is a naughty fellow, keeps ruining things a lot....
Well that was just a part of it....insanity is caused by mostly having a tensed mind, like the time we await for our results....when we get highly tensed, things become impossible to concentrate on and everything becomes intolerable....even the slightest may seem irritating and the best person available may be the worst option ever.....insane brain is not a good feature....so for that a person should remain calm and try not to get tensed and think a lot about something...what ever would happen would be the best for us and we can't do anything in order to change it cause that was supposed to happen and would happen no matter how hard we try....
Still there are people who love to be insane....not exactly insane as the ones who can't think properly but they know the outcomes and still go on with the things they want.....they don't give up and don't even care about the outcome, just want to enjoy and live life to the fullest....example would be a bike rider who does a wheelie on a motorway or a car driver who goes on breaking the records of the highest speed.....that is insanity but with a little sane mind....driving a car while singing and dancing over a track seems insane to some but a sane decision to others....
Every mind has a different boot in system and each one views things differently.....one thing sane and perfect for me, may not be the same for you.....but still some things are insane and that is known by all like jumping off a 500ft cliff into the sea without any safety gear, that is insanity but well people are meant to get crazy and drift of the hook....you can't control that, it is the dare devil inside of you who speaks at that moment and no matter how hard one may try, it doesn't soothes down....
Keep on being insane but in limits....try not to get hurt or hurt others just cause you wanted to do that cause then it wouldn't do any good.....insanity leads to guilt at times, so we need to avoid that cause guilty by insanity is hard to swallow....
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