My 126th Post: You Still Exist

Things have changed, routine is back on its track, life is again calling me back only what isn't there is your presence....I don't see you around me any more...you don't fight with me over tiny things....you don't make me jealous by sharing your things with others rather than me...you don't every time greet me with your smile because you aren't here...you are gone and you won't ever do any of these again....you don't exist in my life any more but that would be a lie and you know I don't lie....
It is a general concept that once a person leaves you physically, that person is gone forever....well this is logically correct but heart fights with logic....it believes in stuff which a sane mind wouldn't agree to...so what if the person isn't standing in front of you, that person is still around you...no matter how badly you want that someone to go, their little things remind you of them....even at times when you are missing them badly, you don't rely upon a reason to remember them and to see their face....no matter what you do, they are always there specially when they left without saying a proper good bye....
There are people whom you wish to delete from your heart and mind but you are just not able to and there are those whom you never want to lose and you keep collecting reasons to keep them in your heart and keep them alive in your life....though their absence hurts but still their ghostly presence soothes you down and glows your heart....I always have believed that life isn't really tough, we are the ones making it tougher by each passing day but, it is tough when you lose someone who was a part of your daily life....there are reasons for people to die and leave us behind and we aren't strong enough to clearly understand those and have to accept the fact that they left us....honestly, it really is tough....I never thought it would be that tough because I thought I have a tough heart but the fact is, even the toughest hearts melt when a loved one moves on.....
Little things are keeping her alive....like yesterday, I was given a pack of jellies because the shopkeeper didn't have change...though I love jellies but she loved them more....or right now, I went out to check the house and I opened the room where she slept....there were some blankets huddled up on her bed and for a moment I was like she is here and it all was a bad dream but no, sadly this is real and she is gone....she wasn't the one trying to sleep, it just was her bed with stuff upon it....so these are random things which I guess are irritating at times but honestly even without them, I still see my sis from place to place.....
No matter what, you still exist...not only for today or tomorrow, for each coming day of my life...Insha-Allah one day when I would have your nephews and your nieces, I would tell them about you and would take care of the fact that you become a part of their little world as well.....I never said this when you were here but you would always be missed by us and by me because no one is there to fight like you any more....

My 106th Post:Do Men Really Hate Women?

Man has always relied upon women for his existence....he depends upon each and everyone of the ladies in his life for his success....it can be the positive or a negative impact of a women but in the end, a women is required for success...to start, men also needs a women to take his foot out in this world...so he is totally dependent upon that specie....still in the end, a lot are heard saying that they hate women and don't want them in their life....in the blood of frustration, they claim that there is no space for a woman in their life and they are better off without her....they put up this sign in their head that the love for the opposite gender just died after their worst experience with them and preach to the world that it is better to avoid them and stay aloof from them....
Well, is that really true? In the end, each and everyone winds up in a certain relation with another one....so saying that men hate women is just a statement to make them realise that how much we want them in our life and to which extent it hurts when they leave us one way or another.....we become spoilt kids and things turn grey....men do not hate women, they just hate the fact that in the end of the day they need their support to regain their energy to face the next day of this bitter life....we need a mother's lap in the end of the day for a peaceful nap, a sister's love and joy when we get back home and a lover's awaiting eyes....
It's just the frustration talking because man needs a woman to prosper....she provides him a reason to reach the stars and she is the first one in most cases to believe in his dreams...she always stays by his side in his good and in his bad just to support him when he falls....men really love women to an extent that most of the times, they overlook the mistakes and the silly wishes or better to say unreasonable requests by women....if men really hated women, till now, the world might had ended because of the stubbornness of the male specie....none of my forefathers might have existed so in the end, I might not be here typing this post...
When a person is hurt, he/she might blabber foolish words just like a drunk....if someone says that he hates women, he just might be hurt...I know some of you might think that he might just be gay but I would disagree because no matter what someones orientation is, this statement comprises each and every women in his life....no one can hate each and every women....so the hate for the whole specie is just impossible for someone to achieve....whenever you hear someone saying this, just realise that he needs comfort and is hurt by someone and needs a fresh start.....
Women really are a blessing in this life....it is a wonderful thing that care and love came in different forms.....

My 75th Post: Rupunzel

When I was a child, someone read me the story of Rupenzel trapped in a tower who had really long hair...my post isn't even close to that one...she has nothing to do with my writing at the moment....from years, Disney has been making stories about princesses that how they were trapped in their gloomy life and one day a handsome prince arrives and turns things to a happy ending....among all those beautiful fictional characters, there is one whom I find the most charming...

From the movie, Tangled, a princess arrives in my imagination named Rupenzel....though many of you might have seen her but for those who haven't, a girl with wide eyes with green iris, with childish and sweet image in them....I mean, she is perfect....

The image is cute and I ain't denying that but am not really talking about that...there are many in this real world who would have eyes like her or hair like her or her body but the nature of that girl which they have shown is what mesmerized me....that is what makes her different from all the other Disney princesses....they have always shown a princess tough and wants to break through every boundary but none of them has the childishness in them like her...Ariel from the Little Mermaid was a bit childish but still somehow she sounded mature to me through out the cartoon....but this one was really a child in both believes and nature...that is what attracted me towards this character....
Maybe that is what I would want in my future someone to be like....though cute from outside but a child from inside....someone who might just be really innocent and that could be seen through her eyes....someone whom I would see and forget my anger....a caring someone who knows when she have done wrong and admits her guilt....a really great talker and caring person with a smile upon her face in the hardest of the times...someone like her would really be tough to find but still when I find her, would I be good enough to deserve her? that is another tale....so I guess I have to work upon myself so that when the day I find her arrives, I would be her Mr. Perfect....till then, I would continue with my crush upon this fictional character...
P.s to top up this marriage, a daughter like Agnes from Despicable Me would be perfect :)
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My 40th Post: Blame Game

Doing something is really easy...you just have to choose what you have to do and then make up your mind to do it....if the thing goes well, then it awaits some applause but if it goes wrong, then you can save yourself easily by blaming someone....that is how things work but that is what I am against....that is not the way people should live on....blaming someone is not the answer to your failure.....if you blame someone just because you couldn't do it then it shows how low graded you may be....
There is a thing in my mind and I know I can do it....instead of going through the plan, I give it a try.....I fall badly on my face....the act was a disaster...instead of realizing my fault, I simply blame my parents or someone else that they could have stopped me....is that the right thing to do? am I that blind that I don't see where I went wrong? I should have thought over it properly instead of rushing to the scene of action.....that would be completely my fault....even if someone would have advised me, I would have gone with what I wanted to do...and if I had agreed to someone who would have told me to quit the idea and then I came to know that it was one brilliant idea but there is no more time to carry it on, I would still be blaming because I didn't do it just because of that someone...
Why don't we rely just on our thinking? talking to someone and hearing their advise doesn't means that we have to follow it on any cost...that just means that we are trying to pick a safe corner before doing something....still we are the ones to take the decision not them....we are the ones to be blamed, not them....we have enough capability to see the outcome of our decision.....so what if it went wrong, we should be strong enough to stand by it instead of telling the crowd that it was his idea not mine...I didn't want to do this, he insisted....now that is simply a sign of a coward....if you blame people just because you did what they advised you to do, then I hope you have enough confidence to step up to the world as a coward....
Be fair guys....if you don't have the guts of doing something, then don't do it rather than killing someone's respect....blaming someone has one worst result, you would never be trusted by the person whom you blamed even if that someone was your best-friend...that someone had to go through rough comments and face shame just because you told everyone that you are the innocent one sitting in between....don't ruin the sails and drown the ship specially when saving a name after something so little....and if you have already blamed someone, then try to fix things by accepting the fall rather than supporting your false statement....you still have time to do the right thing but remember, if you blamed in public, then clear the things in the same crowd....
Learn to preserve things specially relations....if you blame someone in order to make a new relation or save an other, you are truly making a mistake....there are other ways to do things....to break something in order to gain an other still leaves you with a single thing in hand....understand it, its simple math people...so stop blaming and try to be honest with everyone, that would earn you respect and trust....
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My 31st Post: Beauty & the Beast

The famous fairy tale which robbed the attention of many strong writers and directors, the famous tale of a beauty and a beast....there once lived a beast who lived all alone in a palace with the finest riches of the world....he spent his days and nights in sorrow and the grief of being what he was....in another corner, there was a beautiful maiden who was a merchant's daughter....destiny brought both of them together and joined them in the bond of love.....the once living beast was converted into a charming prince who was under a spell of a witch....

Well that is just a fairy tale....in real life things are a bit different....but still the sidelines are the same....somewhere in this world, there would be a beauty entitled to a beast...with her love, the beast may transform into a normal human being....or maybe the other way round....but still the story does remain in books of reality.....
Someone isn't a beast just by looks...the same way, some one ain't a beauty cause of the looks....looks define nothing just that your eyes are pleased to see that face or not.....but beauty can't get the person make a stay in the heart.....the most beautiful girl or the most charming guy in this world may make you view them again and again but that doesn't certifies that you would will to stay with them forever....spending time with someone not only depends upon their outer beauty but also depends upon their inner soul....well it merely should depend upon the outer beauty but people are picky, they befriend someone not until and unless they find them attractive....
The story 'Beauty and the Beast' was a nice tale but I always expected a better plot...the writer tells us that love can happen between anyone and it has the power to break any spell but the part I don't like is mainly its description about the beast....the looks are mainly emphasized and that is what creates a question in my mind....a person doesn't needs to be beautiful in order to be a great human being, that someone just needs to have a heart which beats not accordingly to the brain....instead of making Belle, the beauty, the captive of the beast and become mesmerized by the riches, they could have just shown the friendship between those two starting off from a random meeting which with time turns into real love...proving that no matter how you look, its the personality and the nature which conquers the heart....but well the writers had something else in their minds....
My advise to all would be to run after the real beauty which is the personality of a person and try not to be the judge of the cover....not everyone is the same and if you are better than someone in looks, that doesn't means you are above them...it just means you are blessed with the outer beauty cause you required it more than the other person....so instead of being proud, shine your inner beauty by not caring about what the mirror shows....life is more beautiful that way....
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My 25th Post: Blackout

Opened up my computer, just started off writing a post..hmm na lets see the mails and notifications on facebook first....o o o, I got a reply from her....me clicking upon it and dam, the light is gone.....that is one of the most frustrating moments ever....I mean come on that ain't fair....we pay the electricity bill and all the taxes fairly and still we are rewarded with this....why can't the government generate more power instead of load-shedding....
The blackouts are seriously getting upon my nerves.....its getting tough to get the things done....now we ain't in some stone age where light only existed as flames...we need electricity, that is the basic need....imagine instead of all these words here I just post a black picture....not being racist at all just meant to say a pic in which you won't see anything....that is how it feels during a blackout....at times it gets too dark....like yesterday at night turned on my pc and went downstairs for a stroll....sat on a chair to hit back and laze for a while but thanks to WAPDA (water and power development authority), the lights went off and it was seriously black....could see nothing around me not even my hands, even if there was a piece of diamond in my hands, it wouldn't have shined.....
Now is that fair? here in Pakistan, these problems are increasing day by day....the worst part is that due to some off the track nationalists, all suffer....there is no power to supply cause there is a misuse of light in our country and the ones who are on white track, are the ones who have to suffer with lame and questionable accuses....at times, the bills aren't properly set out and different stories are told to make them the right ones....well that is another tale....but I wanna say is that why can't our government control these facts? It is easy and simple...just be loyal to the country...do for the nation first or at least perform the job you are given with loyalty....that is it, just don't cheat, please....
Well these blackouts won't end and that doesn't means that we stop our jobs...no matter how much the power draws off, I would be back here when it returns to write upon my blog....WAPDA, you can't stop me....well just saying don't take it upon your heart, seriously....
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My 2nd Post: Life like this

Life really is way too short to think that it is never going to end...it is just like a glimpse of some shine which
will fade away as soon as the eye blinks....it feels just if yesterday, I was sitting on my bed wondering what will
happen to me when I grow up and now I recall that incident from years back...
we don't even realise what we miss throughout our life and what we neglect, we just move on without even wondering
that time really runs faster than our thoughts...it feels as if we just had our first birthday yesterday and today
here we are on my post, reading what I have to say...
that is life and the true miracle is that in such a small period of time, it teaches us many things and provides us
with every millimetre of experience which logically seems uncontrollable but a power is there controlling every thing
and handling our threads of knowledge and wisdom....
if we just recall even our past 48 hours of life, we can come up with various of new things which we experienced or
we learnt...even in the last 5 seconds, most of you have learnt a new thing which is the way I write and the fact
that you like this post or not :)
to be honest with you all then there was something else up my mind but I didn't want my starting posts to be so 
gloomy and all...what I wanted to talk upon can wait for the next post and till then take care everyone and do 
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