My 132nd Post: Why Have I Stopped?

I will just start this blog abruptly without any proper introductory paragraph. The last time I had published over this platform was back in 2015 and today, it is 2021. Nearly six years have passed since my last post and that is a long time. I haven’t stopped writing, well no not really. I have been around sharing quotes, publishing academic papers, freelancing, and stuff like that but I haven’t really written something from my heart for my heart.

There are a couple of reasons for my absence, though they might just be excuses but still, I would like to believe that they are valid excuses. One of them which is really the worst is that I have become demotivated to write. I used to believe that I have a way with words and my hands are the medium of art but I came to understand that I might be flying over polluted clouds. My words, well they haven’t generated many readers and followers and I guess they aren’t really worthy of much praise so I just went silent. The other reason is life. Life is a beautiful trauma for us to live and wait for the light to reach our eyes.

I do have a lot to write and talk about but at the same time, I have nothing to say worthy enough for someone to read. This post is just an explanation post for a friend whom I really respect and I owe this much at least.

All I wish to say is that I do will to write but then again, I wonder, is it worth it to type down my words in front of the world who sees no charm in them? Should I really paint my thoughts over such canvases or should I just go back to my silence? I really don’t have a clue about that. I might start writing once again if this post gets even 10 views or few comments because they will prove to me that I am heard and people do like hearing from me or who am I kidding with this?

So, basically, I have nothing more to say upon why I have stopped. Or maybe I do, but then again it is better to be left chained in my brain rather than inked down on this blog. But I can say, I still love to write and am passionate about this art. Even while writing this post, which basically is just a random vent, I am enjoying the music my fingers are making when they press the keys on the keyboard. Writing is and I believe will always be a part of who I am and that will never die but the fact remains that would I let it out publicly or not? I don’t know but who knows, we never know what life has stored for us in the upcoming moments. We just have to live it the best way we can.

“So, have fun, stay safe and continue social distancing to be safe from COVID-19 because it is not a fun to get ill,” words to live by from two-time COVID survivor :)

 

 

My 104th Post: Relations

Every one of us might have studied enough chemistry to know what is bonding....well it is a long process so am not going to define it but just going to say that its main purpose is to join two or more than two atoms together....that same process, just with different rules and regulations, is applied between living things and is termed as relation....as bonding can be of different types, relations are also of various versions.....there are professional relations and personal relations so here I am going to just focus my writing upon the personal relations....
Personal relations require the connection of hearts.....when hearts combine or bond spiritually, a relationship is said to take place.....the problem occurs that it is easy to bond but difficult to maintain the connection....there are a lot of reasons due to which people separate and the most important one is the ignoring nature of human beings....they tend to ignore each and everything once they feel that they possess its authority....our mind drifts us towards the vision that what we own, would always be ours...no matter what happens, that something would pledge its alliance again and again....
When you have everything, you just become reckless and treating that something as a piece of trash after time....though some do take care of their possessions but sadly those are the ones who mostly get played with....there are a lot of things which go off track while in a relation....a person is just a human being walking on two legs and is supposed to fall while covering different paths....he is supposed to make mistakes because he ain't perfect but what one should do is to learn from the previous mistakes....if someone aces that then he/she will always continue the relation made but if fails, unfortunately would lose that someone....
It is really amusing when someone blames the other for not maintaining the relation properly when that first one didn't even care about you until the day you ended.....don't lie...sure one can have secrets but that doesn't means you lie....there are other ways as well...ignore the topic or be straightforward....maybe things would drift apart for a while but still you guys would be together....
Honestly, I don't know what I was going to state in this post but now it is just a gibberish post because of what's on my mind.....well I guess this is a part of my personal experience at the moment and in the end I would just like to say that if one can't be the right hand of a relation, then don't even dare to blame the other person.....you won't only kill the relation but upon that you are just going to destroy your image as well.....

My 82nd Post: Words

Different letters when placed in a random order, usually map out nothing but those few letters when spelled correctly, make out a word which has a proper meaning and a sence of use....a word is something used to define an action, an emotion, some thing, or maybe is someone's name....so different words stand out for different things....the tricky part about a word is that at times a single word may have two or more than two meanings....it just matters upon where you place it because words have both a beautiful and a catastrophic meanings...
As a child, we are always taught the use of words....we are told of how and where we can use a certain word and some words hold a sence of respect which we are told to use mostly with our elders....but what our elders forget is that we learn by their conversations not only by their personal lectures....if they lay down rules of guidance without the act upon them, then there is no use to it because with time the rules are forgotten and what remains is how and where those words were used.....
Words may become the most strongest weapon a person has....what he uters is paid more attention and remains in history more than what he does at times....because words can be repeated and moved forward in other conversations but noone would be able to forward someone's act, that is if no video recording is available....the proper use of words is important because same words can ignite a fight and can bring peace between two parties....it just depends upon how someone uses them and the way they stress upon them....if in some party someone during a speech says 'I' in a calm tone, then noone would really grasp it but on the other hand if that same person puts a little stress upon 'I', people would have different conclusions about him....they might see him as a selfish person or someone who is trying to state or defend himself in that dilemma....
The only confusion whirling around my head is that at times when you define someone or something, no matter how true you might be, others would point out that you were the wrong one specially by being harsh in your choice of words....it is just like when you might say that someone has a rude behaviour, people might take it strongly and on the other hand you define someone's behaviour as a harsh one, people may twist it in some other way....if the words are both exactly the same then why not to accept the fact that the sayer is trying to be straight in his wordings and is just clearly pointing it out....but no, people want diplomatic answers which might not hurt someone's feelings....though I might be wrong here but I think that giving one straight answer is better than playing with words....I believe that when we play with words, which some times I do as well, we really don't want the listener to exactly get a hold of the truth we are speaking about....we still intend to keep their mind confused and manage our way out of the situation....ain't that just something wrong we were taught not to do? but again what we were taught as a kid, is only till when we were kids not when we get mature enough because then people expect us to move along the society and agree upon their facts no matter how wrong we feel they might be, but still move in some way that it might not offend them....
So this all is really confusing because we can't bluntly talk and speak the truth as it might be understood and would mark someone wrong....so why to speak of the truth in the first place if we still intend to appreciate the wrong in one way or an other and accept it as the society's flaw....the thing is that accepting it would encourage in its growth but why to care...
Well, I really don't have the answer here...if someone really can ease down my confusion clearly debating against my points, then please help me and all those who might think in this way....
Tc, comment and do give it a thought if you really want a positive change in the society.....

My 55th Post: I wish I could

Every single day of my life, when I wake up, I just wish for different things...this never stops...there is always one thing or another lined up for me to wish for and each time I glaze at the sky and utter the words 'I wish I could..'...it is really tough to accept at times that I can't because I am not that strong enough or that something is really out of my reach....but no matter what, no matter how much I am aware of my wish being illogical, I still continue with the thought that maybe I would....

This simple verse rules the lives of many...with a new day, wishes line up but at times when the old ones are all ready there, the heart sinks down in sorrow and starts beating hard as if it was stating its pain.....

A guy coming home late and watching his family fighting with hunger because he isn't wealthy enough to provide them enough to sleep in peace, at that moment he would be surely saying that he wish he could....somewhere else, a wife who couldn't be there for her husband and then finds him with someone else would say the same that she wish she could....it is the same, everywhere a person when in need says this and wishes really hard....at times, there is still a chance of getting what he/she wants but there is a time when the things change permanently, nothing could be changed and the wishing would remain where it was....

I wish I could
cause nobody else would
there is an urge
down my gut
A slightly shy
But an unripened nut
This life
Is the chance I got
I don't
Want to let it rot
Once its gone
And I see the dawn
There is noway
I would be able to move ma pawn
I wish I could
cause nobody else would

Just few words of my own...they deeply explain the motives behind this post and the logic behind it....before you lose time, try to gain what you wish for because life is short, no only for you but for others as well....die with the words that you did what you wished you could...
Tc, do comment and share.....