My 131st Post: Am I Forgotten?

Am I forgotten? Ever wondered if people remember you even when you don’t talk anymore. I mean the person whom you used to be a best bud of and now you guys don’t talk, do you think they would have you in their mind still. Or someone whom you thought was important for you but then things didn’t work out and the chapter got shut away for the spiders to nest in. Ever wondered the way you think about them, the way you recall their precious memories, their names and their existence, would they be doing the same time after time.

I have met a lot of people in my age and with most of them, I don’t have any contact at all. Some were just random folks but then there also were those whom I wanted to be a part of my each and every memory. Destiny didn’t have their pictures in my timeline but still I have them in my head. Like the friends I had made in my junior years. Some of them are still in contact but then again majority are like the leaves of fall which flew away from me.

I still remember the names of each and every girl I had a crush upon or whom I fell in love with. Some of them know the fact that I was drooling upon them but specially the girl whose name the cupid struck me with knows it well because she is the only one till the date whom I had enough courage to propose. Well I do wonder if she even remembers me and recalls my memories or thoughts at times. She did had made it clear that I am not going to be a part of her memories by blocking me from every way possible but still, I just wonder if she remembers me.

Then there were random others whom I thought would remain my friends but it didn’t happen. Like a great friend of mine from the school days whom I used to hang out with. She was a nice person and best of all, she helped me out in my love thingy but then something went wrong and it ended. Or like my recent thought about a friend whom I had a misunderstanding with and now she remains at a distance though I did clear it all and our chat ended with my words that I would wait for her reply when she would be willing to talk no matter how high the pile of the years get. Now I wonder it has been months since we talked, does she even remember me. There are a lot of people like her whom I drifted apart from and it has been long since we talked but I don’t think they remember me because alright a girl might have some issues but what about a guy? What about my buddies from the school days whom I haven’t heard from in years. I really don’t even know if they are alive. Well that is life.

I do wonder and I believe everyone does because one can not just kill a memory out of the system. We are not machines whose RAM can be erased or something, we are humans with hearts. If we spend time with even a cat at our door, we remember it. It is mostly our ego and the awkwardness of time which binds us at distance. Well the destiny chose this for us. Some people stay and others just drift away. I would like some of them back but I don’t think anyone would want the entire fleet at their steps again because they were gone and when they left, it might have been a good thing to happen in life. Still I believe that no soul on Earth is forgotten just ignored due to our human nature. They left due to some reason but still they remain a part of our memories.

My 130th Post: Bath Of Sand

Yay dunya fani hai

Daulat to ani jani hai

Is dunya say dil mat lagao

Ik din mout galay lagani hai

In the above poetry, I speak of the limited time we have in this life which we think is going to last forever....this world is going to end one day and nothing is going to be left behind....all the treasures we hunt and all the wealth which we have stored under our pillows is going vanish one day as if nothing ever existed before...there is no use of loving this life because we are going to die one day and that day, we would have command over nothing at all....our bodies are going lie in the ground, baring the burden of sand covering us from head to toe....only a single piece of cloth would shield us from that sand but that still would be of no use because after death, there would be nothing to do just to wait for the time when we get answer for our deeds...
If you see around yourself, all you will find is man running after worldly possessions whether money or love just something which is never going to exist forever...such fools we are...when there is some power which we know and believe is going to remain forever...He was there before us and would remain after us....but still we run away from Him and try to grab what He made for our happiness....yes, we should try to earn what surrounds us but that does not mean that we run after them like a person on a quest of water in a desert....why don't we truly love the One who is always going to be there...why not to earn His respect and His love rather than trying to rise in the eyes of the creation....pleasing the creation might be a nice way to please the Creator but if the Creator Himself is calling upon us and is there if we reach for Him then why to waste time....I am a sinner myself....I know I am going to die one day and I know that I am not going to take anything with me when I die and I am well aware of the fact that when I die, people will mourn after me but they will move on with the passing days...yes, my parents will always miss me, my siblings will always think of me and my friends would always will to be in my company but they will move on....life won't end with me....I am just a piece of grain which contributes a little to the entire beach....I am nothing and would change nothing with my death....time will pass as it always does....this is just not a writer's made up imagination or just words of thought but I have experienced this....I have lost someone recently and she is not here in our lives but still, we are living....we do cry from time to time but we have picked up upon our routine....
Before the time arrives when am bathed in the sand and have nothing to care about, I want to do some rights...I don't want to die as a sinner and I really will to please my Lord so that I may end in a peaceful place, not in the tormenting hell...we all should do good because money may buy even love these days but it won't buy a place in heaven....getting rich is good but a person should always remember that graves of rich and poor are the same only the difference would be in their greed and their deeds....think of this world as a station which we are going to leave when the train arrives and till then, we should be nice with the strangers waiting along side us....we shouldn't live as selfish souls, instead our motive should be to help and heal the wounds which we think are in our power to cover...I hope we all do good and each time we think about something bad, we should remember our death staring at us from a corner we are unaware of...

Mout to ani hai
Yay dunya fani hai
Meri zindagi ki har baat
Ek mamuli si kahani hai

My 114th Post: Society Blamed For Image

People believe that we are the image of our environment....what we grow up to be, depends upon our surrounding and the type of people we had since our birth....a child if born in a house of a thief would in the end become a thief in his latter life, same goes for a child born in the house of a priest...instead of becoming a thief, the priest's child will be a model of his/her religion....so the future of a person depends upon what he/she is provided....the fact that a person's will and understanding won't make a change....whatever a child molds into is fully dependent upon his background.....
I do not agree with the point I laid in the first paragraph....if this was the case then till today, only a single type of human character would had been found....but no, there are differences in people....there are good and there are the ones who lack good in them....it ain't necessary that a priest may give birth to a priest and a thief would bring up a thief in his house....it depends upon the child and the intensity of its blindness....it is just like the case when a child learns to cry just to get what it wants...so if that child really wants to get something, to change into a better human being, it would dig up a way no matter what....but if that same child is happy with the way the things are going, there won't be any change in him/her....it would lead a simple life and follow the path his parents, or someone he adored, led.....

When we are born, we are given some characteristics which help us to learn and to survive in a better manner in this life....though someone might be uneducated, that someone would still be aware of the difference between injustice and justice....the simple way to know that is to imagine a case making oneself the victim of the impact caused by the decision taken....if one thinks that things weren't fair and there was injustice involved then that same would be the thought of someone else....so it is really simple to judge between two statements and choose a better one....for example, if someone has a task to kill someone, the killer might think it is a good idea because he/she is going to be paid for that but if that killer steps in the foot of the victim, then I don't think his/her selection might be the same...everyone loves their life, to kill might be a profitable business but to die only leads towards bankruptcy and would encounter a loss of life....
A person has the options in front of him and it is upon him to decide what he wants to go with....it is only he who maps his life....society does play an important role in one's life but if someone wills to do good, no one would be able to stop him....but if someone really wants to shower in the dirt of his inherited society, then no one in this world can stop him....what ever he is given, he would end up becoming a part of that dirt....
Try evaluating things and at times, do listen to your heart while making some decisions.....it might hurt you but a honest heart won't guide towards the path of evil....

My 110th Post: Suicide

A person lives once and unfortunately dies once....once you are dead, you can't return to this world and relive what you thought was useless.....every year around 800000 to a million people die due to committing suicide....these are the ones who have no respect for their lives and I personally believe that they are the weakest form of mankind.....they don't have the will to stand up against the world and try to change things....well, it is not entirely their fault because they never had the trust in God....they are amongst those who never understood His dealings and His justice.....
A rope tied around the neck or a jump from a cliff, are explained as difficult tasks....it is said that to commit suicide, one needs to have guts....it ain't an easy task to achieve....well I accept this statement because taking someone else's life is not that hard compared to killing oneself.....but still, there is strength in the will and the firmness upon the point of giving up....so in the end, no matter how rough and tough a suicider might seem to the entire world, he/she still is a looser....someone who couldn't achieve something and in return took his/her life just to prove that what he/she was after meant a lot to him/her.....maybe the point is clearly defined by the act of a suicide but in the end, that someone stays a looser because there is a loss of life and also would lose the reason that someone died for.....
I agree that at times things become difficult for a person to handle....life becomes tough and the tragedies bomb the entire mind but I believe that ain't a reason of giving up.....I am not talking about foolish reasons like dying for a guy or a girl because that in my understanding is just out of question...that someone is just a selfish soul who never deserved the love from his/her family.....just for a love of few days, months or perhaps years, people attempt suicide and the ones who are successful, leave behind the ones who loved and cherished them their entire life.....I believe that their families, no matter how ignoring, deserved better.....here am talking about people who go through tragedies like losing their families in a battle which was never their's or being robbed out of dignity or physical respect....these people are really hurt....the mind starts playing games and with time they start accepting the fact that there isn't any space for them in this society....death seems more attractive to them and they happily depart from this cruel world.....
If only those people had their believe in God, they might have stayed back and might have remained within our society...I know that it is easy for a person to write about others and tough to be the one who experiences things like that but still I wish there was a way out.....this society plays an equal part in those suicides....if our society wasn't this cruel, their hopes might have lived and they might have fought for their rights....but our society likes to rub in and scratch the fresh wounds until the victim falls upon his/her knees....instead of supporting someone, our society starts ignoring and keeps nagging until it is successful at washing the prints of that someone from the corner of this world.....
Let me ask you that what was the mistake of an innocent girl who was rapped on her way to school or the mistake of the guy who was honest with his job but due to political games, was imprisoned upon the charge of corruption...what did they do to the society or anyone to get this as a reward? they were clean but they suffered....they became weak and found death as their loyal companion because life was mocking them where ever they went....they committed suicide and left this world just to run away from this hell....they were wrong but the society wasn't right as well....they required justice but were treated as bugs in this society....
I wish to help those depressed souls and want to make them happy....before ruling out someone, try to see what went behind the scenes and help reducing the number of suicides...life is a beautiful gift bestowed upon us and we should cherish it rather than just running to quite it.....

My 73rd Post: The Forget All Pill

 Life has a lot of turns to offer and amongst those there are some which we don't like at all...there are times which we regret of being present in and times when we simply wish that nothing was there at all...but still, we don't have any option of moving past what we once have seen...it always remains in the back of our memory as the root of a withered tree....
Just giving things a random thought made me wonder what if there was some way which would help us forget a particular time period or an instant....what if the memory which we store winds up in the recycle bin...though the topic suggests a pill which would help us forget stuff and as much I recall, there are drugs which help in forgetting a desired time period...but what about a memory which was stored some years back...how to erase that? that is the main question rolling in my mind....

There are times and memories which haunt each and every day....people tend to forget things with time but there are things which hold on tight and never leave the sight...those memories are painful and the main source for someone's depression....it is always suggested to live in the present and forget about the past but no one really knows how to do that...people only suggest but they themselves know that moving on and erasing a thing from past is difficult and somehow impossible because at times in life, old memories line up in the shape of pictures, a house or someone who resembles the one you trying to forget...even I have troubles forgetting like my favorite collection of bookmarks which I lost some years back but each time I try to set a mark in some novel, the memory haunts me....well it doesn't haunt me but still imagine if those bookmarks were a person you loved and that someone left you and now when you watch t.v, there is someone who resembles that dear one way too much...it gets really irritating when that actors turns out to be famous and winds up on every single channel...
There is a disease I heard of in which you forget everything except your education, your daily routine and the people who are around you most of the times...except that, everything else becomes a mystery for you....now this ain't a depressed writer typing but imagine someone getting a chance to start off from basics with nothing of his/her life, just like getting to live twice in a single life span....in the circumstances of this era, for me it is kind of a blessing for that someone....having everything in a normal way just getting a new start is perfect...many would die for such a thing because the minds are polluted to such an extent that it feels as if it would burst one day due to the stress and pressure in it....
As an engineering student, I have a vision in my brain...a device which would help connect the human brain with the computer and just like a memory card, things would be stored and deleted from it easily....not going in the details of my logic but if any scientist is reading this post, do contact me and help design this...in my belief, this won't be playing God, it would be a form of recycling or the a green act...something like that....well hope something works out till I start off with my designs....
Tc, do comment and share and also share your views as well...

My 69th Post: Discovering The Truth

Ever seen those Star Plus dramas? If you have then you exactly know how it feels when we get to know the truth about something...yeah it would have been much cooler if we had those idiotic sound effects and those death defining camera views in our real life but still the feeling they show is somewhere near what we really feel....
In most of the cases the truth is ugly because we just can't digest it....it is a dish which is best served as a starter not as a desert...but still, people leave it aside for the end.....truth, is a heavy word....honestly speaking, I can't digest it as well but still I work my way into it because there is no other option besides it...it is much easier to accept the fact which is laid as soon as possible because no matter how much time we take, it would remain the same till the end....

For me, it is a really depressing moment and I get way too much gloomy and fall off the track...it is just because I believe in the beginning that what ever I am told is the only face of the tale....the stories, the dialogues everything seems to be real and there, the brain, creates up a world or better to call it a house in which that person resides....the house made from what I get told and it seems beautiful if the material pleases my nature....but the time when it all is stamped as a lie, it feels as if the house got on fire and the only way to save it is by getting it burnt or just believe that there was no fire....
It is really tough to know the truth and do nothing about it....yes, realizing the fact that everything was a lie is something but still realizing something and acting upon it are both two different things....at times, we get so much indulged in the liar and the lie that we put an intentional veil upon it so that we don't get to see the ugly face of it....we bury the truth deep down our heart and sink it like that Black Beard's treasure chest....no matter how hard others would try to thrash that lie, we would still believe that one person....yet, at times we act differently...rather than this soft and kind nature, we show a bit more rude and aggressive one....that is the case in which we would burn the house our self....the moment truth arrives at the door steps, everything is destroyed and no chance of survival remains.....
In my views, non of them is a suitable way to face a lie....the second one is better because at least the person is accepting the facts and trying to live in reality but still that also hurts because once a person gets attached to someone's lie, it is really tough to move away without getting hurt....the best way is to let the house burn by itself....instead of thumping away, it is better to watch it till the ashes remain....as it is said that with time bruises heal, or something like that, a lie would die the same way...instead of changing the life, just try to change that person without taking any hasty decisions....this will hurt less because once you are away from that someone, it would only pinch because of that spoken lie....
Just smile and try to live life to its peak and enjoy..Tc, comment and do share..... 

My 40th Post: Blame Game

Doing something is really easy...you just have to choose what you have to do and then make up your mind to do it....if the thing goes well, then it awaits some applause but if it goes wrong, then you can save yourself easily by blaming someone....that is how things work but that is what I am against....that is not the way people should live on....blaming someone is not the answer to your failure.....if you blame someone just because you couldn't do it then it shows how low graded you may be....
There is a thing in my mind and I know I can do it....instead of going through the plan, I give it a try.....I fall badly on my face....the act was a disaster...instead of realizing my fault, I simply blame my parents or someone else that they could have stopped me....is that the right thing to do? am I that blind that I don't see where I went wrong? I should have thought over it properly instead of rushing to the scene of action.....that would be completely my fault....even if someone would have advised me, I would have gone with what I wanted to do...and if I had agreed to someone who would have told me to quit the idea and then I came to know that it was one brilliant idea but there is no more time to carry it on, I would still be blaming because I didn't do it just because of that someone...
Why don't we rely just on our thinking? talking to someone and hearing their advise doesn't means that we have to follow it on any cost...that just means that we are trying to pick a safe corner before doing something....still we are the ones to take the decision not them....we are the ones to be blamed, not them....we have enough capability to see the outcome of our decision.....so what if it went wrong, we should be strong enough to stand by it instead of telling the crowd that it was his idea not mine...I didn't want to do this, he insisted....now that is simply a sign of a coward....if you blame people just because you did what they advised you to do, then I hope you have enough confidence to step up to the world as a coward....
Be fair guys....if you don't have the guts of doing something, then don't do it rather than killing someone's respect....blaming someone has one worst result, you would never be trusted by the person whom you blamed even if that someone was your best-friend...that someone had to go through rough comments and face shame just because you told everyone that you are the innocent one sitting in between....don't ruin the sails and drown the ship specially when saving a name after something so little....and if you have already blamed someone, then try to fix things by accepting the fall rather than supporting your false statement....you still have time to do the right thing but remember, if you blamed in public, then clear the things in the same crowd....
Learn to preserve things specially relations....if you blame someone in order to make a new relation or save an other, you are truly making a mistake....there are other ways to do things....to break something in order to gain an other still leaves you with a single thing in hand....understand it, its simple math people...so stop blaming and try to be honest with everyone, that would earn you respect and trust....
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My 33rd Post: Friends

There is a huge list of options in the category of relations....each and everyone is important and in life there comes a time when a person is incomplete without one....if its a guy, he may become a father to some, a brother to another and an uncle to someone else....but there are limits for him....as his gender justifies, he can't be someone's wife or someone's niece.....same in the case of a women...she can't be someone's grandfather or someone's father in law....that just means that the relations are choosy and they don't allow each and everyone to tag them in....
But there is one which doesn't cares about the cast, creed or the gender....neither it cares about one being alive or not....it tags along with anyone or anything just with one condition, trust....and that is all, just fill out the form of trust and there you have it, a relation package of friendship....
Friends are those special people who are sent down to Earth in order to fill in each and every place where someone needs a hand to hold on to.....the relationship of a true friendship is stronger than many bonds even at times, it cracks the limits of love....it may be in between a dog and his master or a guy and his car...it can stick into any two things....
You share your tiniest secrets with them...they are the only ones who know how crazy you can get at times....with them the world becomes small enough to swallow in a single bite...I mean its just amazing how the thing with a friend goes....even without saying a word, just with the expression of a blink of an eye, urban legends can be revealed....not really but it means that words aren't always required to continue a conversation.....
If someone sees you with a friend and are aware of nothing, things just seem as an episode of Charlie Chaplin....your buddy (specially a best friend) keeps on using some special words to describe a whole scene of an hour and only thing you reply is a high fi and then some phony expressions....to the viewer its just like entering a math's lecture at its end....
Friends are the most precious jewels of life....they should never be left to corrode, instead should be varnished every once in a while....the magic of friendship never ends until someone just moves on forgetting whom he met before the position he is in.....friends fight for each other, support each other and are there always to hold your back even there are ones who get scolded just cause they took the blame for his friend....
Thank you all my friends for being there for me and surviving through my every lame joke with a laugh.....thank you for simply being my friend and making my life's each day a happy ending and giving me the will to rise to a new morning....remain my friends forever....
Dedicated to all of my friends and to those who are a friend to someone....
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