Am I forgotten? Ever
wondered if people remember you even when you don’t talk anymore. I mean the
person whom you used to be a best bud of and now you guys don’t talk, do you
think they would have you in their mind still. Or someone whom you thought was
important for you but then things didn’t work out and the chapter got shut away
for the spiders to nest in. Ever wondered the way you think about them, the way
you recall their precious memories, their names and their existence, would they
be doing the same time after time.
I have met a lot of
people in my age and with most of them, I don’t have any contact at all. Some
were just random folks but then there also were those whom I wanted to be a
part of my each and every memory. Destiny didn’t have their pictures in my
timeline but still I have them in my head. Like the friends I had made in my
junior years. Some of them are still in contact but then again majority are
like the leaves of fall which flew away from me.
I still remember the
names of each and every girl I had a crush upon or whom I fell in love with.
Some of them know the fact that I was drooling upon them but specially the girl
whose name the cupid struck me with knows it well because she is the only one
till the date whom I had enough courage to propose. Well I do wonder if she
even remembers me and recalls my memories or thoughts at times. She did had
made it clear that I am not going to be a part of her memories by blocking me
from every way possible but still, I just wonder if she remembers me.
Then there were random
others whom I thought would remain my friends but it didn’t
happen. Like a great friend of mine from the school days whom I used to hang
out with. She was a nice person and best of all, she helped me out in my love
thingy but then something went wrong and it ended. Or like my recent thought
about a friend whom I had a misunderstanding with and now she remains at a
distance though I did clear it all and our chat ended with my words that I
would wait for her reply when she would be willing to talk no matter how high
the pile of the years get. Now I wonder it has been months since we talked,
does she even remember me. There are a lot of people like her whom I drifted
apart from and it has been long since we talked but I don’t think they remember
me because alright a girl might have some issues but what about a guy? What
about my buddies from the school days whom I haven’t heard from in years. I
really don’t even know if they are alive. Well that is life.
I do wonder and I believe
everyone does because one can not just kill a memory out of the system. We are
not machines whose RAM can be erased or something, we are humans with hearts.
If we spend time with even a cat at our door, we remember it. It is mostly our
ego and the awkwardness of time which binds us at distance. Well the destiny
chose this for us. Some people stay and others just drift away. I would like
some of them back but I don’t think anyone would want the entire fleet at their
steps again because they were gone and when they left, it might have been a
good thing to happen in life. Still I believe that no soul on Earth is
forgotten just ignored due to our human nature. They left due to some reason
but still they remain a part of our memories.
