My 126th Post: You Still Exist

Things have changed, routine is back on its track, life is again calling me back only what isn't there is your presence....I don't see you around me any more...you don't fight with me over tiny things....you don't make me jealous by sharing your things with others rather than me...you don't every time greet me with your smile because you aren't here...you are gone and you won't ever do any of these again....you don't exist in my life any more but that would be a lie and you know I don't lie....
It is a general concept that once a person leaves you physically, that person is gone forever....well this is logically correct but heart fights with logic....it believes in stuff which a sane mind wouldn't agree to...so what if the person isn't standing in front of you, that person is still around you...no matter how badly you want that someone to go, their little things remind you of them....even at times when you are missing them badly, you don't rely upon a reason to remember them and to see their face....no matter what you do, they are always there specially when they left without saying a proper good bye....
There are people whom you wish to delete from your heart and mind but you are just not able to and there are those whom you never want to lose and you keep collecting reasons to keep them in your heart and keep them alive in your life....though their absence hurts but still their ghostly presence soothes you down and glows your heart....I always have believed that life isn't really tough, we are the ones making it tougher by each passing day but, it is tough when you lose someone who was a part of your daily life....there are reasons for people to die and leave us behind and we aren't strong enough to clearly understand those and have to accept the fact that they left us....honestly, it really is tough....I never thought it would be that tough because I thought I have a tough heart but the fact is, even the toughest hearts melt when a loved one moves on.....
Little things are keeping her alive....like yesterday, I was given a pack of jellies because the shopkeeper didn't have change...though I love jellies but she loved them more....or right now, I went out to check the house and I opened the room where she slept....there were some blankets huddled up on her bed and for a moment I was like she is here and it all was a bad dream but no, sadly this is real and she is gone....she wasn't the one trying to sleep, it just was her bed with stuff upon it....so these are random things which I guess are irritating at times but honestly even without them, I still see my sis from place to place.....
No matter what, you still exist...not only for today or tomorrow, for each coming day of my life...Insha-Allah one day when I would have your nephews and your nieces, I would tell them about you and would take care of the fact that you become a part of their little world as well.....I never said this when you were here but you would always be missed by us and by me because no one is there to fight like you any more....

My 122nd Post: I Will Be There

When the sun goes down

When your face grows a frown

I will be there

When you would turn around

When you would lose your ground

I will be there

No matter what

Today, tomorrow, whenever you call

I will be there, to catch you from your fall

At times, it gets really difficult to hold on to people and to be with them from day to night....feelings change, people change and even the situations change...there are multiple reasons due to which a rift might bridge a part two people and send them to different corners from where they wouldn't want to be around each other....sometimes it is a mutual decision but at others, one has to suffer while the other walks away....
There are people who never leave....though they might leave physically and break off each and every thread binding two people, they always remains tattooed in the heart....they are among the ones for whom a person would love to cross the limits just to light a smile upon their face...the ones who would never be forgotten and would own the rights of one's care....
People fight and people drift off but at times the heart keeps on saying to them that I will be there no matter what happens...no matter how tough things get or how far a part they are, the inner voice would always tell them that don't worry, the person owning the rights of this heart and voice would always be there for you no matter how deep you fall...this someone would always jump after you without thinking a thing or two....people are not always compatible with each other or they might start developing new feelings or adopt a different nature....reasons like these rot the relationship and leaves no other alternative rather than to end in respect....but some of these people are precious and no matter how hard you try, you always feel that you somehow care for them....you always feel the will to fight for their smile and still you don't want to be with them or aren't with them....
Well, I know there are some people in my life whom I still kinda care about and would always want to be there to hold them up when they take a fall....I am not only talking about someone I have been in love with in the sense of guy and girl thing but someone who means a lot to me....that someone might be a sister to me, a brother to me, a best friend, a special friend, someone special or someone from the past but I know the list of those someones whom I am going to be there for no matter how things turn out between us....so I would like to say that I will be there when you would need me, I will be there when you think you got no one to talk to and I will be there when you want a hand....there is no need for me to mention their names because simply reading this post would prompt the ones whom I am conveying this message to...

If there are people in your life who you feel are important to you or you think you would always be there for them, do tell them one way or another....show them that you mean it and make them count on you....make them realize that someone really cares for them...do it before the time runs out....if you find it hard telling them, then simply share my post with them and dedicate it to them...they will clearly understand your intentions and your motives.....

My 55th Post: I wish I could

Every single day of my life, when I wake up, I just wish for different things...this never stops...there is always one thing or another lined up for me to wish for and each time I glaze at the sky and utter the words 'I wish I could..'...it is really tough to accept at times that I can't because I am not that strong enough or that something is really out of my reach....but no matter what, no matter how much I am aware of my wish being illogical, I still continue with the thought that maybe I would....

This simple verse rules the lives of many...with a new day, wishes line up but at times when the old ones are all ready there, the heart sinks down in sorrow and starts beating hard as if it was stating its pain.....

A guy coming home late and watching his family fighting with hunger because he isn't wealthy enough to provide them enough to sleep in peace, at that moment he would be surely saying that he wish he could....somewhere else, a wife who couldn't be there for her husband and then finds him with someone else would say the same that she wish she could....it is the same, everywhere a person when in need says this and wishes really hard....at times, there is still a chance of getting what he/she wants but there is a time when the things change permanently, nothing could be changed and the wishing would remain where it was....

I wish I could
cause nobody else would
there is an urge
down my gut
A slightly shy
But an unripened nut
This life
Is the chance I got
I don't
Want to let it rot
Once its gone
And I see the dawn
There is noway
I would be able to move ma pawn
I wish I could
cause nobody else would

Just few words of my own...they deeply explain the motives behind this post and the logic behind it....before you lose time, try to gain what you wish for because life is short, no only for you but for others as well....die with the words that you did what you wished you could...
Tc, do comment and share.....

My 10th Post: Men v/s Women

hey ya all...I know my last post was kinda slazy but at least there was something to read rather than just an empty space :p well it is hot outside and I enjoyed playing football in the morning...wait sorry, my bad, took this post the wrong way :D
since the human beings  evolved from stone age to this modern age, a simple dispute always remained at it's side....no scientist or philosopher came up with any equation or theory to get to the bottom of a simple question that who is better, men or women....I would like to give it a try today :)
if we go through the history and past records, we can find both standing equally over all....at some instances men has the lead but at others, women are sitting above....so over all in my view, I would say men and women are both equal....men is known for strength from the start of time and women for her delicacy....I completely agree with this....it ain't that every single male specie is strong but considering the over all percentage, mostly males are strong....same goes for a female specie in the field of delicacy....there are always some exceptional cases where some people go beyond the capacity of there body type and achieve a height which makes them superior in their specie and at times a challenge for the other.....that doesn't means all would be the same....I mean those exceptional cases would be like 1 in 100....
for example, there are girls who are known for their strength, enough to take down a healthy guy and on the other hand their are guys who are so feminine that they can carry themselves better than a women herself.....these are just exceptions.....they do not define the characteristics of every single person.....
I mark them equally cause both are living and both have feelings....some express and some don't, it is just how they are built and meant to be....to challenge nature and start proving that one is better than other and interfering in each other's job, is disrupting the life's cycle....the downfall in the world's positiveness is mainly due to this simple reason....so it is better to stay how you are made....a women is best in giving birth to a life, men can't ever top her no matter how strong science gets....in the same way, men is best in war, no matter how weak he is, he would find a way cause he has a sheet over his heart.....
so simply people, stop arguing and live together in peace....no matter who is best, life needs both present in order to balance this world we are living in.....
Tc and comment please