My 126th Post: You Still Exist

Things have changed, routine is back on its track, life is again calling me back only what isn't there is your presence....I don't see you around me any more...you don't fight with me over tiny things....you don't make me jealous by sharing your things with others rather than me...you don't every time greet me with your smile because you aren't here...you are gone and you won't ever do any of these again....you don't exist in my life any more but that would be a lie and you know I don't lie....
It is a general concept that once a person leaves you physically, that person is gone forever....well this is logically correct but heart fights with logic....it believes in stuff which a sane mind wouldn't agree to...so what if the person isn't standing in front of you, that person is still around you...no matter how badly you want that someone to go, their little things remind you of them....even at times when you are missing them badly, you don't rely upon a reason to remember them and to see their face....no matter what you do, they are always there specially when they left without saying a proper good bye....
There are people whom you wish to delete from your heart and mind but you are just not able to and there are those whom you never want to lose and you keep collecting reasons to keep them in your heart and keep them alive in your life....though their absence hurts but still their ghostly presence soothes you down and glows your heart....I always have believed that life isn't really tough, we are the ones making it tougher by each passing day but, it is tough when you lose someone who was a part of your daily life....there are reasons for people to die and leave us behind and we aren't strong enough to clearly understand those and have to accept the fact that they left us....honestly, it really is tough....I never thought it would be that tough because I thought I have a tough heart but the fact is, even the toughest hearts melt when a loved one moves on.....
Little things are keeping her alive....like yesterday, I was given a pack of jellies because the shopkeeper didn't have change...though I love jellies but she loved them more....or right now, I went out to check the house and I opened the room where she slept....there were some blankets huddled up on her bed and for a moment I was like she is here and it all was a bad dream but no, sadly this is real and she is gone....she wasn't the one trying to sleep, it just was her bed with stuff upon it....so these are random things which I guess are irritating at times but honestly even without them, I still see my sis from place to place.....
No matter what, you still exist...not only for today or tomorrow, for each coming day of my life...Insha-Allah one day when I would have your nephews and your nieces, I would tell them about you and would take care of the fact that you become a part of their little world as well.....I never said this when you were here but you would always be missed by us and by me because no one is there to fight like you any more....

My 79th Post: Another Chance

This world is filled with people and the people are listed in the category of morons....I don't mean to offend any reader here so just hear me out first....people keep on commiting mistakes again and again...they can't make proper choices and be perfect....after failing they ask for another chance....now where is the logic in that? why would someone award a second chance....things could have been properly mapped out in the first place but the moran had to do a blunder...why? couldn't that someone be simply perfect like a machine? wasn't there a code of conduct taught to each and everyone, so why a mistake?
That moron my friends, is a human being and that poor soul is allowed to commit mistakes because there is nothing like perfect in its system....we make mistakes and learn from them but can't learn if we aren't awarded a second attempt....giving a second chance is essential no matter how wrong that someone was...maybe that someone really wants to clear the debt of guilt and maybe that someone really is willing to learn and straighten things and try to shape them back into a normal image....I agree that things done or said at times leave a permenent mark in life and can't be erased no matter how hard someone tries but still that image can be covered up with something pretty in the future....
It is known from centuries that the one who forgives is mightier than the one who asks for forgiveness...giving a second chance is just like forgiving the past mistake and giving a chance of reattempt....this is easily done in exams but not in life....in life people can't start off from scratch but they can edit it a bit....
Many of us deserve a second chance and the one's who you think don't, try not to judge them just give them a go if you can...that is all you can do to make things better....at times people break off just because they feel guilty to an extent that they shread into pieces and if by luck they are able to stand up and try again, they are hurled back by saying that they don't deserve it....I know it hurts when someone ruins the things in the first instance but it hurts more when that someone who wills to glue back things, realises that it is destroyed forever....so don't be cruel like them and try to put things behind...if there is a thought of getting hurt again, just forgive that someone and give a second chance but this time providing with a set of hard limits....
The one's who haven't tried for the appeal of another chance, do it quickly till you can....it would feel devastating once you get to know that time has slipped out of your grip and there isn't any form left to be filled for another attempt....
People do make mistakes and for that noone can call them a moran but the one who is habitual of stepping on the same wet floor again and again, moran is a small word in vocab to describe them....try to smile in life and with that also try to become the reason of someone else's smile....try not to let someone down but if you do, try to act quickly and tie the broken threads....
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My 55th Post: I wish I could

Every single day of my life, when I wake up, I just wish for different things...this never stops...there is always one thing or another lined up for me to wish for and each time I glaze at the sky and utter the words 'I wish I could..'...it is really tough to accept at times that I can't because I am not that strong enough or that something is really out of my reach....but no matter what, no matter how much I am aware of my wish being illogical, I still continue with the thought that maybe I would....

This simple verse rules the lives of many...with a new day, wishes line up but at times when the old ones are all ready there, the heart sinks down in sorrow and starts beating hard as if it was stating its pain.....

A guy coming home late and watching his family fighting with hunger because he isn't wealthy enough to provide them enough to sleep in peace, at that moment he would be surely saying that he wish he could....somewhere else, a wife who couldn't be there for her husband and then finds him with someone else would say the same that she wish she could....it is the same, everywhere a person when in need says this and wishes really hard....at times, there is still a chance of getting what he/she wants but there is a time when the things change permanently, nothing could be changed and the wishing would remain where it was....

I wish I could
cause nobody else would
there is an urge
down my gut
A slightly shy
But an unripened nut
This life
Is the chance I got
I don't
Want to let it rot
Once its gone
And I see the dawn
There is noway
I would be able to move ma pawn
I wish I could
cause nobody else would

Just few words of my own...they deeply explain the motives behind this post and the logic behind it....before you lose time, try to gain what you wish for because life is short, no only for you but for others as well....die with the words that you did what you wished you could...
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