My 123rd Post: Stranger On Chat

I am just blank...I don't know how to start this....really there is nothing in my mind....no words no nothing....it should be something nice, something interesting, something out of this world...it should be something which would grab the reader off her feet and into the air floating over my words....it should be something perfect, something which no one might have ever used....it should be something from my heart but still should be classy enough to show my coolness.....I know what to say and I just know the right words to type....they would be "hi there"....
On a chat, with a total stranger....it is like going in a war with Japanese weaponry but having no clue of the instructed language.....no idea what to say and how to grab the attention....the mind goes totally blank because each smooth line might trigger the bomb that is might force the person to leave....the mind keeps wondering what to say because that start is the only thing that would impress the other person to stay and talk....it shouldn't be too cheesy because that is totally fattening for a start....it shouldn't be out of line because that would break the glass of respect....it shouldn't be something over thought because something which reveals how much you thought before starting a simple chat would indicate the fact that you are a pretender....it should be something simple and appealing at the same time....a simple compliment or greeting work at times.....

Got a reply, now what....everything goes blank....adrenaline rushes through the system and the eyes keep staring at the screen...the heart pumps faster and faster as if it were to beat the time track of Indianapolis 500....for a moment, the hands freeze upon the keyboard and the mind tries to settle back in....suddenly, you gain enough strength to strike some keys and there you have it, a reply upon your screen ready to be sent....the conversation starts and the stranger settles in....victory...
Talking to this stranger seems wonderful because there is a feeling that even though that someone doesn't knows you, he/she is still willing to be there for you....it feels that there is hope in you and you are good enough to get an attention from a total stranger, that you deserve things in life....it gives a rise to dead motivation in life and brings a new dawn....
Talking to strangers isn't safe, that is what we were taught but what is safe? The person you knew since your childhood turned out to be a crook so that leaves a chance that this someone might be an angel or someone whom you might really count on in the upcoming future....stranger today might be someone important tomorrow....trusting someone is something else but before deciding that you can't trust someone, you need to give a chance at least....if there isn't any trust then there is nothing to break and if nothing to break then there is no spice and if no spice then no life....talk to a stranger today...try to know that someone....there are good people even outside the circle you live in.....

My 94th Post: What If

In life, we make decisions at each and every step....at times, we rarely have enough time to look upon the matter and decide properly....we just go with what our mind says or our heart believes in....at the end of each and every quest, we always have a question in our minds....no matter what the result is, whether good or bad, we always think 'What If' at the end....then there are various other options in front of us after receiving the results and we keep visualising the situation with the alternative....
This two worded question never dies from our minds....it is always there...like what if I had woke up early instead of getting up late...though I can't change anything now but still am a human and to be honest, we are weak....we like to fool our brain at each and every possible moment because we know that reality is harsh and if we had just a chance, we might change...though we mostly repeat what we did before but still we like to hope for a chance to change....maybe the results might be better and we might have a better time....
What if...this brings up a lot of thoughts in my brain because there are many moments in my life which I would like to change....there are many decisions which I guess I regret taking ever but now, I don't have the power to change them...though I can change the upcoming future by trying not to repeat anything like that or when a similar decision comes, try to choose the alternative but well that is next time, not the one I have already lived.....I guess all of you readers would also have this question hovering around you specially when you get a quite time, away from every other thought....
We aren't perfect and that is the beauty of life....if we knew the option with the best result, then there wouldn't be such a thing as hope because we would always know that whatever the result might be, it would be perfect.....asking the question 'What If' shows that one is living because he/she feels.....'What If' is a result of guilt, sorrow, hurt, or even jealousy but whatever the reason is for that to occur, it just shows we are still human beings and aren't just walking with a dead soul.....
Do keep asking this question when ever you feel the need of it but never drown in depression because of that....no one can change his/her fate....what we choose, is meant for us....instead of getting depressed, one should just stand up and try to take the upcoming decisions with the knowledge from the previous results....just try to live and what so ever happens, accept it and bring a smile upon your face...I know that is one tough thing, but that is the easiest as compared to being dead while living.....

My 48th Post: Blocked

It has been two days since I have updated my blog....don't know why, but somehow I am unable to write....it ain't that I don't have topics in my head, but nothing to write....I start of a topic then end it after few paragraphs....I am just unable to get on with words....I want to play around and write but I am blocked....can't really think of anything after a while....
It feels like my head is going to burst after writing further so instead of keeping it under stress, I just change the topic or leave the post...but I want to be here and speak through my words...the urge of writing just makes me glaze upon the page for many breaths but still that is followed by a frozen breath and I end up shutting down my pc....
It has been two whole days and nothing upon my blog....that is just eating me up; seriously...right now, I feel I want to end this post and close the window and move away from this all....somehow am unable to concentrate on anything, somehow I just feel my mind is lost somewhere, a place where nothing is able to reach out and grab it back....
Well I hope I get back soon and start off with my writing....I really want to write but well not always someone can continue...I think my brain needs some rest and in no time insha-Allah it would be back with new and amazing posts....for now, this would work just fine...at least this would sooth me and comfort me by making me feel that the blog is updated...
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