My 127th Post: Why No Posts

I haven't blogged in the past few weeks....I am busy but I always was busy...that ain't the reason of me not playing in the rain of my words...I love to write and I always have time for this...the only difference this time is that I wanted to be heard and to be read....any thoughts in my mind, I just wanted everyone to share them and to be a part of my world but these days, I don't want to be heard....I don't want to be read....and I don't want anyone to be a part of what I have because somehow I have just grown a degree of possessiveness about my thoughts, my dreams and my words.....
I know this all sounds rude to many of you but I like to be honest and I feel it as my duty to at least convey this bit to all those who miss my writing and my updates....there are few who keep telling me to write and to post here and I do respect their motivation and their care but I feel that I need time for me....time for some silence to take over my space so that I can savoir the moments I have spent...I just want to be silent for a while and play in my head with my words and I believe somehow they are just too personal to share....they are too sensitive to reveal and to mess with....I just believe they are just mine and mine alone....my mind isn't empty or blank, there is a lot going on upon the roads and under the bridges but I have closed all the exits just because I don't want anything to go out.....
I would insha-Allah write upon some topic real soon....there are a lot in my mind which I want to write upon...just a few more days till I stand up upon the stage and would scribble my words so they can be projected towards your screens....till then take care and thank you guys for being there.....

My 123rd Post: Stranger On Chat

I am just blank...I don't know how to start this....really there is nothing in my mind....no words no nothing....it should be something nice, something interesting, something out of this world...it should be something which would grab the reader off her feet and into the air floating over my words....it should be something perfect, something which no one might have ever used....it should be something from my heart but still should be classy enough to show my coolness.....I know what to say and I just know the right words to type....they would be "hi there"....
On a chat, with a total stranger....it is like going in a war with Japanese weaponry but having no clue of the instructed language.....no idea what to say and how to grab the attention....the mind goes totally blank because each smooth line might trigger the bomb that is might force the person to leave....the mind keeps wondering what to say because that start is the only thing that would impress the other person to stay and talk....it shouldn't be too cheesy because that is totally fattening for a start....it shouldn't be out of line because that would break the glass of respect....it shouldn't be something over thought because something which reveals how much you thought before starting a simple chat would indicate the fact that you are a pretender....it should be something simple and appealing at the same time....a simple compliment or greeting work at times.....

Got a reply, now what....everything goes blank....adrenaline rushes through the system and the eyes keep staring at the screen...the heart pumps faster and faster as if it were to beat the time track of Indianapolis 500....for a moment, the hands freeze upon the keyboard and the mind tries to settle back in....suddenly, you gain enough strength to strike some keys and there you have it, a reply upon your screen ready to be sent....the conversation starts and the stranger settles in....victory...
Talking to this stranger seems wonderful because there is a feeling that even though that someone doesn't knows you, he/she is still willing to be there for you....it feels that there is hope in you and you are good enough to get an attention from a total stranger, that you deserve things in life....it gives a rise to dead motivation in life and brings a new dawn....
Talking to strangers isn't safe, that is what we were taught but what is safe? The person you knew since your childhood turned out to be a crook so that leaves a chance that this someone might be an angel or someone whom you might really count on in the upcoming future....stranger today might be someone important tomorrow....trusting someone is something else but before deciding that you can't trust someone, you need to give a chance at least....if there isn't any trust then there is nothing to break and if nothing to break then there is no spice and if no spice then no life....talk to a stranger today...try to know that someone....there are good people even outside the circle you live in.....

My 104th Post: Relations

Every one of us might have studied enough chemistry to know what is bonding....well it is a long process so am not going to define it but just going to say that its main purpose is to join two or more than two atoms together....that same process, just with different rules and regulations, is applied between living things and is termed as relation....as bonding can be of different types, relations are also of various versions.....there are professional relations and personal relations so here I am going to just focus my writing upon the personal relations....
Personal relations require the connection of hearts.....when hearts combine or bond spiritually, a relationship is said to take place.....the problem occurs that it is easy to bond but difficult to maintain the connection....there are a lot of reasons due to which people separate and the most important one is the ignoring nature of human beings....they tend to ignore each and everything once they feel that they possess its authority....our mind drifts us towards the vision that what we own, would always be ours...no matter what happens, that something would pledge its alliance again and again....
When you have everything, you just become reckless and treating that something as a piece of trash after time....though some do take care of their possessions but sadly those are the ones who mostly get played with....there are a lot of things which go off track while in a relation....a person is just a human being walking on two legs and is supposed to fall while covering different paths....he is supposed to make mistakes because he ain't perfect but what one should do is to learn from the previous mistakes....if someone aces that then he/she will always continue the relation made but if fails, unfortunately would lose that someone....
It is really amusing when someone blames the other for not maintaining the relation properly when that first one didn't even care about you until the day you ended.....don't lie...sure one can have secrets but that doesn't means you lie....there are other ways as well...ignore the topic or be straightforward....maybe things would drift apart for a while but still you guys would be together....
Honestly, I don't know what I was going to state in this post but now it is just a gibberish post because of what's on my mind.....well I guess this is a part of my personal experience at the moment and in the end I would just like to say that if one can't be the right hand of a relation, then don't even dare to blame the other person.....you won't only kill the relation but upon that you are just going to destroy your image as well.....