My 127th Post: Why No Posts

I haven't blogged in the past few weeks....I am busy but I always was busy...that ain't the reason of me not playing in the rain of my words...I love to write and I always have time for this...the only difference this time is that I wanted to be heard and to be read....any thoughts in my mind, I just wanted everyone to share them and to be a part of my world but these days, I don't want to be heard....I don't want to be read....and I don't want anyone to be a part of what I have because somehow I have just grown a degree of possessiveness about my thoughts, my dreams and my words.....
I know this all sounds rude to many of you but I like to be honest and I feel it as my duty to at least convey this bit to all those who miss my writing and my updates....there are few who keep telling me to write and to post here and I do respect their motivation and their care but I feel that I need time for me....time for some silence to take over my space so that I can savoir the moments I have spent...I just want to be silent for a while and play in my head with my words and I believe somehow they are just too personal to share....they are too sensitive to reveal and to mess with....I just believe they are just mine and mine alone....my mind isn't empty or blank, there is a lot going on upon the roads and under the bridges but I have closed all the exits just because I don't want anything to go out.....
I would insha-Allah write upon some topic real soon....there are a lot in my mind which I want to write upon...just a few more days till I stand up upon the stage and would scribble my words so they can be projected towards your screens....till then take care and thank you guys for being there.....

My 121st Post: The One

Fairy tales, t.v dramas and every other script which is based upon the concept of love, somehow ends with the same story that the guy and the girl finally are together...there is this image fed into the audience's mind that the hero was meant to fall in love with heroine and no matter how much they fought or didn't get along, they would finally be together...there are always differences between them but with time, the expected couple always would evolve into a one soul two body kind of image....I mean come on, does this really happen in real life? Is there someone there we don't notice but keep on avoiding or having arguments with but is the one we are going to end up with as if we are a part of some play and the cameras are pointed at us....every show airs that like Richard Castle and Kate Beckett from Castle or Ross and Rachel from Friends....both of these couples always fought but in the end, they got together because they were meant for each other....
The one....so in my case or in any of yours' case, there is someone we know and maybe encounter but that someone is in our life but maybe we are in a stage of ups and downs with that someone...so basically, for me, she is just around the corner and is in my play but we aren't together and won't get together until the time is right...can this be true...I mean the main lead in my play, the one who I am going to be with for the rest of my life is here in my life but I don't really see her that way or maybe she doesn't notices me as the one for her....I might have loved her once, but she didn't...then there might have been a time when she loved me but I didn't and so on so fore but we never confronted each other and moved on....then comes a time when we both would realise that there is no one else in this world meant for us rather than the one we are thinking of and we finally fall in love....
This can't be true...this is just like a fairytale come true...fairy tales don't come true but if they do, then these are really messed up but on the other hand there are mostly beautiful ones...if each one of these stories are properly traced down from the beginning of time till the end then Shakespeare's plays wouldn't even be known to the worst stages in this world....
I really don't know whether it is true or not but I do know for a fact that what so ever my story is or going to be, I really want to know or wait better, I really want it to be written down....the day am going to get together with that one, I would write down our whole story and maybe she was here all along but we never really knew...maybe the one is always around the corner and just waiting for the notion to play our part and get together....this gives a hope to look out for that one so if someone broke up with you, just means that the one who is really meant for you is around the corner just waiting for the cue....

My 117th Post: Random Words

It has been around two months since I came out with my last post....somehow I am unable to write....when I write, I just lose the sight of my path and then there I am, with my words hanging without an edge and I keep on removing that post from my published list....I really don't know why but somehow I believe that I can't write any more....it is like I have a major block in my head which is making me post nothing though there are so many things to write upon here....I have many topics waiting for my mind to put out in words but when I start writing, I end up watching some video or playing those stupid facebook games....it is just like I have a torch while walking down the path in a darkness filled valley but what I miss are the batteries for my torch...somehow the writing spree is hung up as that light from that valley....
I really do want to write but I don't know why I keep resisting....I do believe that I am not a bad writer but well I guess there is this voice in my back head which keeps telling me that you really don't have much readers and it simply means that my writing is way worse than many....that voice has conquered my will I suppose....somehow I have lost the battle with that voice but I want to prove it wrong and want to win this war...so what if it won the battle, the war is still for me to win...

Writing all this has really brought me up....well literally speaking then I did change my posture from lying down to sitting up but well I think this is working....there is this light I can see at the moment which is trying to tell me to find the path....it is telling me that I haven't diverted much...the path is still there and the light is vibrating...o sorry, that was my cell phone so I guess no light at all....
I really think I should write again....I really do love writing and I was an idiot for ignoring this beauty...now writing all this I really think I have missed my hands upon this keyboard and making sounds like tic tic tic....and the pain from typing is really amazing....I don't know if you guys are really reading this still and if reading, you guys are not having an image of a lunatic blogger but I will write....I guess my block ends with this post and from tomorrow onwards insha-Allah, I will blog properly once more....
Best of luck to me guys and please keep on motivating me with your comments and your views...thank you...

My Half Century Post: Mysterious Tomorrow

Its 1:52 am and I was about to go to sleep but came back here to write....I was wondering, what would happen when I open my eyes for the next sun rise...how would things be...would they still be the same as today or they would be completely different from what I have already experienced...I really don't have any clue about that...
In my mind, there is a stream of thoughts....it flows 24/7 and there is no end to that....in that stream, there is a thought about my tomorrow...how it would be and what shape it would be in.....I really don't have any idea....just keep wondering and making up different tales in there and predicting the things to take that route but then when everything seems perfect, I quit because a voice in my head starts shouting at me to become realistic...the place where I mark myself a hero, I just jump down from there and land on my feet to a normal person's sight...everyone wonders the views of the upcoming time....people have both negative and positive thoughts in there but still no matter what they try, they aren't in control....

Tomorrow, it is such a big word...seriously I had problems remembering its spell as well....just forget about the personal thoughts for once and think about tomorrow, how would it be and what would happen...I really don't know about myself but if speaking generally, then I can say the way I can see things around me, tomorrow ain't that bright...it isn't going to shine like today did....well am not talking about the day which is just going to come after I wake up, but instead I am talking about the day which would arrive in few months or years....I don't really see a bright future for this planet and its people...
Yes, the people would get stronger and get more advanced in technology, but it would with time lose the most basic guidance of life...there is a lot to life than just to study and become rich....there are many things a person has to take care of before them....for instance if love for humanity dies and a person starts loving himself, then the world would divide....people are losing values and respect...we can see the glimpse of our tomorrow today....there aren't any manners...the young is growing too fast...before they could experience the innocence of their age, they are outta league....the old is being neglected and for one's good, the whole community can be robbed...not that it was required but because that someone wanted to be the richest person available....
If things continue this way, there won't be a tomorrow which someone would want to await and someone would want to live in...try changing before you become a victim of that tomorrow...change things around you and become better at living not just earning money....
Tc, comment and do share...

My 42nd Post: Right or Wrong

There are always two sides to a decision, right and wrong.....if its right, then everything is swell but if its wrong, things get unbalanced....but the confusing part is when we don't know what the outcome would be....but still that is easy to go through because we know that the decision might be correct just the outcome has a chance....at times, the decision itself is in the selection phase....the decision might be right or wrong....when that happens, it is really tough to select because its hard to overlook the decision....
Everybody hopes that the life would have been really easy....there would have been no requirement of thinking over a matter, just do what the heart says and the consequences wouldn't matter at all....but that isn't how life is....every single thing needs to be as perfect as possible..if not, then serious issues occur....
At times the heart will go with something which is truly wrong but still we want to do that because it seems as if everything revolves around that matter.....it keeps bugging until that is done and when finished, makes us all gloomy and off the shores of life....it is really complicated how things change and happen.....but well in the end, the fight between right and wrong continues....the decision is made but things map up in a way to take another step which then seems wrong or maybe right but the timing may be wrong.....

I am just thinking, everything is divided among these two categories.....a right thing for me may not be right for you and in the same way a wrong act may seem a right act to you.....simple example, selecting a medical university may be wrong for me but a right act for someone reading this post....but here I am mainly concerned with the logical point of view not the likes and dislikes or the capabilities......a thought should be right but how to distinguish it is the main deal.....how to know what is right and what is wrong....if I tell my methodology then I simply think that if what I am doing can be shared with my parents and can be openly talked about in the society, then there is nothing wrong with that.....but if doing something, I have to hide the tale and keep aloof from people, then I need to rethink over it.....it is easy to do wrong but when the time comes to convert that wrong into something right, then things mess up....
I wouldn't suggest to do what the heart says....heart speaks a lot and it really knows what we want and what we desire...it just wants us happy and wants us to keep smiling but doesn't thinks that maybe what it advises would be the source of pain in the mere future.....so listen to your heart, consider its thoughts but do keep your mind's point of view in your head and then make any decision....there are least chances to do wrong, mostly you would end up with a right decision but do keep in mind that maybe that right decision might hurt you for a while but that would save you from a bitter future.....
Keep smiling, stay safe, comment and share.......