My 32nd Post: One Year Gone

Time passes so soon....its just like sand held tight in a hand...no matter how hard one may try, it would still slip out....one whole year and two days back, around at this time, I was driving my car....it wasn't any ordinary drive....it was a very special day which has blossomed many hearts....everybody was excited but were tensed as well....its one of those times when you are happy but still the smile swings here and there....well in the end, after waiting for some hours, I came to know that I can have the honor of viewing my nephew...Yes, that day my nephew came to this world to reignite our lives.....
At first, I wasn't attracted to him that much....I mean I loved him and all but still there was something loose....don't really know what it was but still there was something but as time passed from a day to a week, things changed....he wouldn't even talk or anything just sleep all the time but still I wanted to be with him...give him hugs and kisses, just wanted to be with him all the time....
Now on 7th August 2012, its been a year since we met....trust me, we have bonded really well masha-Allah....he is one of a kind toy....you should really see what he does and how he acts....he is filled with tremendous acts....its just as if he was trained before he came down to us....you can't outsmart him and here I ain't exaggerating.....those expressions which he puts on when he knows he did something wrong or when he shows the sense of victory are outclass....I really can't define him in my words perfectly....the best suited phrase for him coming in my mind would be a naughty angel.....I have rarely seen kids at his age who can act....at times he cries, people think he is going to burst out with tears but no, it was just a hidden trick to achieve his goal of snatching something or maybe getting someone's attention....
Once, just few weeks back, he went to a shop with his grandfather....there he got mesmerized by sun glasses....he tried every piece on like every child but the thing he did special was that he kept trying each one and after wearing it, he posed with a very cute smile masha-Allah to all the passing ladies; I mean the ones he liked....after continuing that, there was someone he really wanted to impress but she didn't even look at him and his smile turned into a frown and prompted perfectly a sad cat's expression....that was a Kodak moment....there are a lot of tales of his life which I can share but the space is limited....
The most wonderful thing is how he looks at me....whenever I meet him all of a sudden, he just blooms up and starts bouncing to tell me to pick him up....it ain't only me who is in love, but that little, cute toy of us has the same affection for me...that just lightens my heart....his expressions and the glow on the face when he gets to know of my presence is just priceless....I hope and pray that everything remains the same...in fact the love increases with upcoming years....(insha-Allah)
Happy Birthday kido, may you be blessed with many more and I am sure that all my readers would also be wishing you and praying for your good health.....(insha-Allah)
Tc, do comment and share.....

My nephew, Mibsaam

My 19th Post: The Day I Die

A day would come
When sorrows will end
A day so mighty
That no soul can withstand
The day that I
Can't understand;

Was just wondering randomly that how would it be when the time stops...even the slightest movement seizes in that very instance and nothing would seem to have life in it to budge even as little as the tiniest particle, the atom....how would it be when I come to know that I am going to leave this world....
I have given a test, my result is going to come on etc date...I came in this world so my birthday is going to be celebrated on 12 December...but I don't know the date or time for my funeral....the day I die is not fed to my brain....or maybe it is in it somewhere but I ain't aware of it....I don't know whether in the end of this post I would be there to write another one or not...or maybe I live long enough to keep on writing till the 1000th post....who knows....
We all have to leave someday but what if we knew how and when we leave, would that be better?...we would be able to prepare our self for that moment....at least try to complete every single assignment which we have ignored till that time....get a farewell from all the ones we are close to....just imagine....someone who knows when he/she is going to die, they would throw a gathering and sit with everyone they know and clear the guilt, the grudges and forgive everyone and in the end just sit there in the company which they loved throughout their life time and leave the world....won't that be the happy ending illustrated in the fairy tales or that would be the craziest ending.....
I think we are better off like this cause if someone knows when he/she is going to die, they are just going to ruin their remaining time....if someone knows that the end is going to arrive in exactly 2 months, those 2 months are going to be living hell.....they would try to achieve as many goals as they can and the one's who have responsibilities would burst out with tears cause two months aren't enough to do everything, the things which weren't completed in years, can't end in months....but what if we know the day we die from the time of our birth..would that make any difference? I don't think so....
Life like this is just perfect....to know when we are going to die would ruin everything....every single day in tension and full of stress and people would become reluctant and frustrating...everything would become unbalanced and it would be a total ciaos.....
The day I die, I don't know what I would be up to and how would it be but at least till I am unaware of it, I am relaxed...yes, at times I just feel that I haven't achieved goals still but then I tell myself that insha-Allah there would be a new tomorrow...not knowing when it would end, I can still have hope and that is all I want....

Let my day
End in peace
No sorrow  to suppress
No tear to grease
Would like to
Leave this world with a mighty smile
Flow with the wind
Just like the fast flowing Nile...

Tc and do comment.....

My 5th Post: Results

A day in life when everything becomes blur....it seems that your heartbeat is slowing down and then rushing instantly, as if there was no constant pace with which it was pumping blood....you feel sudden adrenaline rush in your system and will to faint so that when you wake up, everything would have ended...
That is the day when your results are out....I can tell how my hands shake and how my hair stand up straight....cause that is the day when we know rather we can celebrate or stay in a corner for the day..
There are various kinds of results...some are simply of exams in our educational life which may influence us but we still have a chance to enlighten our score in the next attempt...but there are results which change our life forever...the ones after which we don't get any chance of changing the path...
No matter what kind of a test we give, we should keep in mind that we need to put in our best in order to get the best results and to be proud of the outcome...always should have that positive lining in our mind that no matter what the result would be, it would be for our best and that is what we deserved whether honestly or maybe we deserved it cause that would bring out a better result in the upcoming future...
So think positive and always look forward to the results, no matter what the outcome is, there would be a cloud with a silver lining awaiting our presence :)

Tc