My 51st Post: The End of Life

Person never knows when and where he would fall in the deepest sleep...everything goes on and suddenly life withdraws from this planet...what belonged to the Al-Mighty Creator, returns to Him...there is no control over the number of breaths someone can take, they just end up without even a slightest clue...
Few days back, on the 9th of September, I witnessed the death of my grandmother...everything changed from a normal routine to something I can't describe...it was just a random day and suddenly turned out to be a historic event for the family....from that night, I have been wondering about the life after death....all I know is that the soul is taken away and then the person waits for the day of Judgement...that is the knowledge I have but my thoughts are beyond that...
I know, that happens and I believe in that but the thing in my mind is, what is the feeling when that happens...what does the person experience when he/she is about to die...the person upon the death bed just seems in pain when the soul is captured but is that really what happens?

I kept wondering about that and honestly speaking, I am still wondering...at this instant, my heart is pounding harder and my brain wants me to stop here because I think it is scared but I want to think and am unable to get this out of my head.....what happens when the soul is taken away...the person who dies, losses all the connections with the world, won't that be scary? what ever happens to us, we seek help from our parents or the person whom we are close to but when we die, all of them would vanish from our sight....there would be nothing in front of us except the Angel of Death....how would that feel? no one to look forward to and seek help from....our soul would be just like a prisoner, taken to a place we never can imagine...after everything, we just have to wait for the final day and till that, nothing to do....well these are the second parts of the tale, am still stuck at the point when the soul would be captured...suddenly an angel appears in front of us and takes us away, that is really scary...
A day would come when the person who was around us all the time would be no more....if I tell about my recent experience, it is really odd...the door which led to my grandmother's room, is now only a place filled with non-living things...the bed where she resided, is left cold and the blanket which she used to cover herself, is now lying at the edge of the bed in the same manner....there is a lot in my mind to burst out but lets just keep it there...
A day would come when I would get my answers to the questions which are in my head but after that day, I won't be able to think again....so honestly, I would want them to remain mystery until I don't fulfill each and every duty of my life and I don't make sure that I would wake up in Jannat after sleeping in this world....
May my grandmother earn a place in Jannat and everyone who is on the right path and the ones who are mislead, may they turn towards Him before they return to Him...Ameen....
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My 38th Post: Those Goodbyes

First we meet someone and then we great them....then the time passes on in long long chats....some laughs are shared and some fights are dodged but everything seems lovely and enjoyable.....some secrets reveal and some mysteries unfold....the time flies of in the dripping of the words.....it feels so good and the heart wishes more but unfortunately, it has to end.....
At some point, you need to turn....maybe for a while or sometimes, forever....that is the toughest moment of meeting someone...the time when you have to say goodbye....it gets impossible to let go the one you want to be with...the one who was making you smile for the past few hours of your life.....the one who was there to set a memory in your mind.....but you have to go....life needs other requirements to be fulfilled.....staying there forever can not be done....when letting someone go, the heart gets heavy and things damp up....you had to leave because there were other things winding up but you really didn't want to leave because that was the one you felt really comfortable with...that was the one you want to be with....
There is a fear that developes in our minds at the time of a farewell that whether we would get to meet again or not, whether there would be an other series of the chat or not.....this 'whether' really messes up the mind specially when we don't want to lose that someone....we somehow try to budge things here and there in order to achieve a little window but at times that is not an available option even....
Leaving someone is really bad....the attachment of the heart really makes it tough...though the heart is only a pumping device, it sometimes tries to be what it shouldn't be....it gets us tangled up with people so badly that at times even after a long time after departure, we still miss them badly....at that moment, the heart tells us that it is possible to get to them even if the clock was ticking 4 of the morning.....its a relief that the brain stands for us and reminds us of the insanity the heart advises and we sit back in the memories missing their presence...
Goodbyes do hurt but sometimes, they just leave a mark behind...there are times when we know that the person who is about to leave, would never return.....that is the time when the heart bleeds from inside....at times the person leaves us and at others, we have to leave them....it maybe because someone dies, which surely makes it complicated but still it was a known farewell...but when the person is still alive and leaves because of some reason, that hurts.....
Well, no one can avoid it...what only matters is that we meet again...that is the only thing the heart desires...and that is the only request a person has for someone he leaves behind....
Upon this topic there is a famous Hindi song which I have in mind from days and would like to share it here, so enjoy, comment and do share...